GAH!!!

Seven hours. Yes, that is right, I just spent seven hours with my boyfriends best friend. What did we do for seven hours? We spent seven hours in Target, Peetsmart, Office Depot, Best Buys and a japanese restaurant. I actually had a really great time, too. I was kinda nervous going into this hang out, but it was a lot of fun to get to know FriendA (see last post) better ^-^
We had amazingly deep conversations in Target, and we tried on a ton of hats and just hung out and talked. It was nice.
and then I went home...
and discovered WWIII
and my happiness was shot
and then trampled
and it sucked
yeah
my parents are ggrreeaatt..
I am 18 years old, right? An adult, right? If I am an adult, shouldn't I be treated as one, or am I expected to act like an adult but be treated like a child because my age ends in the word "teen"! I don't understand what to do, I am seriously at a loss for words right now because the second I got in the car with my mother, she began to yell at me for leaving the house for seven hours and putting my father in such a state and for being alone with a boy who is not m boyfriend and BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! Then I got the same thing from my father when I walked through the door.
Needless to say I am listening to Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace and pacing around my room and picking frights with everyone. I am just feeling really angry. Not sure what else to say. Other than this:

GGGGAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*INSERT*ANGRY*SCREAMING*AND*YELLING*HERE*

Up To Date and Just One Quick Question :D

So, yesterday was rather odd, I woke up extremely happy and I cleaned the whole house. I would walk past a mirror and wonder why anyone in this world could be sad when there is so much to be thankful for. It really was an eye opening experience, that is, until my mood crashed around 8 that night and I felt very bitter towards everyone.
Anyways, thought I would share that haha

So! Today my boyfriend left for the beach with two of his friends and they won't return until Sunday. His other friend (let us call him FriendA) was left here, so we decided to hang out. Now FriendA can be a very socially awkward fellow, and if you know me, then you know that I thrive off of the awkwardness of others and awkward moments are like a sanctuary for me. Needless to say, I rather enjoy the company of FriendA. We spoke this morning and have decided to spend our time together at a Target, which he has deemed to be "a very mystical and exciting place". I love Target and I am hoping we do not get kicked out of there, but if it comes down to either good judgment or a lightsaber war in the asiles, I think we can all be sure that good judgment will lose.

Now then, as for my job applications...I feel as though I have applied to every company, business, and employment opertunity in this town of mine :/ I'm not really sure where to go from this point seeing as everyone is looking for a person who has experience. Grr this never ending circle!!!

Hey! One last thing before I sign out of here..Just a quick question to the masses, if not to the one person who happens to stumble upon this blog/post/thing. My boyfriend is very protective, and he isn't my first boyfriend, but is it okay for him to ask me to not hang out with certian people one-on-one? Take for example, ex boyfriends or people I have slept with, maybe people who like/once liked me..I feel like it is okay for him to feel that way, but not to dictate me and say "You Cannot", does that make sense? I've already spoken to him about it, but I jus want to hear what other people think on the subject.

Thanks for your time!!

Warning:Amazing Day EXPLOSION 1

Hello everybody..today is a very sad day, and I will not be offended if you decide to not read this post because it will be me basically ranting out everything that has been pissing me off. It will contain both foul language and confusing codes, not to mention that since it is written by me, most of it will make no sense. At this point in time I do not know how long or short it will be and I can make no promises as o its relatablitly. I have warned you fairly and I feel that I have done my duty as a blogger to keeping you informed. If you wish to read on past this point, feel free. If you would rather not be subject to the inner workings of my mind..I sugest you leave this page now.
Thank You.










ASDFGHJKLPOUHGHJKIKJUHNMFJDSB VKSFJD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God I am so PISSED!!!!!! And I have no reason to be
I just feel abandoned and lost and like Shit and I hate it so freaki-and I just GAH! ya know and then they guys are all "haha hey wanna - " and I look at them like they are IDIOTS cause they ARE and then those little SLUTS! are always FUc-and I just canNOT stand to be all but even then I just GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!QWSDGBHJKJHGFDX and YES i just swapped my hand across the f ing keyboard like some badas cause sometimes a GIRLS gotta do some crazy shit and I feel like ALL THE FUC time i am this little piece a innocence that just gotta F FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF and i just wanna UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU but i can't CCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC even though i should KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK does that make any sense??? and it's just like Riku Riku Riku and I'm all Shut the f* up ya little whore and no ones cares cause its all ERTYUIO all the ERTYUO time and i just s oERTYUI sick of it and I just wanna ERTYUI but NNOOOO!!! who the hell do you people think I am!?! I am just one person and I cannot possibly make everyoone happy, so I don't try to make anyone happy and I succeed in making no one happy, not even me because i am part of anyone and it ERTYUI sucks -.-'


Okay, so now let me try to explain what just happened...in a more sensible manner. You see, I have had an amazing day. The thing is, I ever have amazing days. Average days, normal days, good days, great days, okay days, then a whole range and scale of bad to "KillMeNow!!!" days. Never amazing days. If I do happen to have an amazing day then I over think it and it becomes a bad day because I overthink it. That is what happened today, only I did not over think my day until tomorrow (just now as shown above) and so you got my little outburst which did not help me but did happen to help you understand who I am and how I work. Oddly, I doubt any of you care very much about who I am or how I think/work/whatever.
I did have an amazing day today, even though I spent two hours sitting by my ex boyfriend and then all day texting him, I figured out that my ex and I are still good friends. It was nothing against him personally, we just did not work well together as a couple, so we broke up. I figured out that I do actually enjoy talking to him and I like our conversations, he is a fun guy.
Also, I spent no time with my boyfriend, he was in the mountians all day helping his grandparent by doing manual labor for them. It was okay that we didn't really talk all day, sometimes a little distance can be nice, and it is good for a relationship. Now, when I say that, I don't mean seperate yourselves for a year and a half and have zero contact, I mean sometimes it can be nice to spend a day away from each other, not hang out or text 24/7. I really care about my boyfriend a LOT but it was nice to be reminded how much I like him by the time we spent apart..okay enough with the mushy gushy stuff haha
I got to go shopping for 3 hours with my mom and we had quality mother-daughter bonding time. It was a lot of fun, and we got lemonade and pizza and laughed. I can't remember the last time my mother and I went out and actually had fun AND laughed with each other.
After I got home, I had quality time with my father, we cleaned the gun. I got to spend an hour or two cleaning my baby (my father legally owns the .22 hand gun until my 21st birthday). It was great to just sit down at the kitchen table and work with my gun. I love cleaning that thing almost as much as I  love shooting it (which I get to do tomorrow).
I spent the day texting my Bestie, good conversations! Not this fighting crap that we have been doing lately, it was as if everything had gone back to normal between us *knocks*on*wood* and I was so happy about that. It wasn't tense or awkward at all, and we actually laughed again. It was good to smile like that.
Finailly, I got an amazing new book! I'm not big on books, but when I saw this one, I had to get it. It is called I Want My Hat Back and it is written by Jon Klassen. Yes, I am talking about a childrens book. It is just one of those childrens books that you MUST read. I only care for a few select childrens books, but this one made me stand in Target for 10 minuets and laugh. I read it aloud to my mother and she laughed. I read it to my younger brother and he freaked out, but he doesn't count haha this book made my day. You just simply must check it out and ell me what you think.
So anyways, everyone I know seems to have gone off to bed, I should probably follow their example and go to sleep as well. It is only 2am, but I am feeling rather tired.

This is Riku, signing off and wishing you all pleasant dreams and happy lives.

Sad...Rock Climbing

Did you think I was going to say that rock climbing is sad? Well, that is NOT what my title means. It actually means that I am sad, but I did get to go Rock Climbing, and it was AWESOME!!!!

So I am sad and depressed right now because my bestie and I seem to fight none stop now and it is super depressing..when we fight like this I feel like we should just take a few months out of each others lives (no facebook or texting or checking each others blogs or anything like that) and remind ourselves why we love each other so much. Or..maybe even see what life would be like without each other..and find out if it is time for us to part ways...
Okay, it is out in the open now!
Cannot take it back!!
No matter how much I wish I didn't think it!!!
It's just that, well, we have been part of each others lives for like..4 or 5 years now and for this past year or so we seem to do nothing but fight and it really pisses me off. When we text, one of us is always upset and then once that one is happy again, the other is pissed off. We seem to continually follow the same pattern for it every tie we text, and I don't know how the hell to fix it. Any suggestions? Anyone??
I guess that for now I will just have to be strong and maybe we can push through this year together and everything will turn out okay..right?
I sure do hope so..my life would not be the same without her.

Now..enough of this depressing talk, let's move on to rock climbing!
It is so much FUN!!!
Oh my goodness, so my boyfriend finially got to take me rock climbing, he and one of his best friends went with and it was a BLAST!
I loved it ^-^
His other friend went for a little while but he didn't do any climbing since he had to leave early and it seemed a little expensive. But I had a ton of fun. It was a 5 story high wall and we all got to the top a few times. Anyways, it was a really good arm work out. Also, it showed me just how travel size I really am, because I had to take a very different course than my boyfriend and his friend while going up the same wall. It may have also been my approach though. . .oh whatever, it was a ton of fun and I highly reccomend it to all of you. Unless you have a fear of heights, then think to yourself "Challenge Accepted" and go for it, just once, do something crazy!

Catching Up and Cleanin with a Smile ^-^

Okay so these past few days have been kinda crazy. I had to work over time in order to finish my room for the big sleep over that has been in the making for weeks, it was going to be all of the girls from my old group, "The Kids In The Corner". Well, I finished my room half an hour before anyone got to my house so I had just enough time to take a shower! So the sleep over was a blast, even though only two of the girls could make it. We were up all night, dancing around my room with a strobe light on and then we built forts and watched movies, even went for a midnight swim! It was pretty fun, even though I got absolutly no sleep.

They were gone by 4 the next afternoon, and then I was suppose to go rock climbing with my boyfriend and his two beest friends at 5. So I got to his house by 5 and everyone seemed basically asleep..to be honest, it was sort of awkward. Then before we left, my boyfriend started to feel really sick, and since he was going to drive us, we ended up not going. It sucked because I was really looking forward to rock climbing, it is something the guys really enjoy, but we were all tired so I guess it was for the better.

Also!!!
I finished cleaning my room, and now I am reorganizing it! It is so much fun!! The weird thing is that I really am not a fan of cleaning or organinzing things or anything like that..so I think there is something wrong with me because I have been having so much fun with this whole organizing/cleaning process and it just makes me so happy ^-^

OH! One last note haha last one I promise (unless I can think of another before I finish this one XD) I have been really into A Very Potter Musical and Sequal lately and I think it is driving my bestie and boyfriend and family and everyone I come in contact with crazy haha I like to randomly start singing the songs or quoting it and people are beginning to get annoyed with me. The problem is that I have no idea how to get un-hooked on it..problematic, isn't it?

Okay, so I think that is all, I cannot think of anything else to say so I am going to go back to redoing my room and watching Very Potter ^-^ needless to say, I am super happy right now. So yep, that is about all I have to say, so Good night/morning...whatever this is..and have a happy life/night/morning/whatever. BYEE!!!!

Sleepy. . .

Today has been a very sleepy day, it is only 11 and yet I feel so exhausted. I was awake by 9am this morning and I was out the door for a shopping trip with my mother by 10, we went to Sears and then to Panera Bread for lunch with my boyfriend. After lunch we went back to my place because the boy, which is his official name in my house, was feeling ill. He and I fell asleep when we got home around 2pm and slept until dinner which was held at 7. We were yelled at, he and I were suppose to clean the house since I am hosting a party on Monday and I wanted to spend the day with him.  We were also suppose to wash the car. We did not do either because we slept for 5 hours on the couch.
He had to leave at 8 so we spent the last hour together outside. He had gone the past three days with only nine hours of sleep, and the week before he had only snagged a few hours of sleep as well. I have no excuse, I just enjoy sleeping haha bu we spent the last hour outside, enjoying the freash air and just kind of being in the moment. It was nice, I like to spend time alone with him because when we are alone I feel like I can be myself and he can be himself and we are a lot less fake with each other than we are when we are in public because we both have this image we have to keep. His image doesn't change much, he still doesn't like people, but he is more open when is it just us and he seems a lot more comfortable. I on the other hand am a very different person, and thank god that he likes both sides of me, otherwise I would be screwed! I enjoy letting my walls come down a little when we are alone, I feel like it is more okay to be vaulnerable around him, to let him see some of my weaknesses and my strengths and I don't have to pretend to be anything I am not, you know? I just..I enjoy that, it is one of the things I love so much about him, he makes me feel so safe. Sounds corny as hell, I know, but I can't think of another way to put it. He just makes me happy.

Now then, about this party...it isn't anything fancy, just a few girls coming over for a little sleep over. I have to clean my room though, and make sure the pool is up to par, plus I have to clean up the shower and bathroom and make sure my little brother does the same with his. Also, there is a list of groceries a mile long with what we are going to need for food because as of right now there is almost no food in the fridge. My room is a mess, I have clothes strewn everywhere and I can no longer see my floor anymore. Sadface, it was such a pretty floor..anywho, so I have a lot to do and I feel as though I have no time with which to do it. Tomorrow will be a major cleaning day, after church of course. This means that there will be no hanging out with the boyfriend and as few text message conversations as possible. The only person I will be texting is most likely going to be my bestie. I kinda need her haha and if I do happen to text TheBoy, it will be to tell him to finish his homework because he is doing a summer school program and he has been slacking off in the homework area. I think I will start with my room, because that is the biggest prject, and then around 7 or 8 I will drag my brother outside to wash my moms car with me.

I can do this. I have less than 48 hours to clean the whole house to the point where my mother approves. I can do this. I can do this.. Can I do this?
I guess we shall see.

Daily Repeat

Hello to you great world of bloggers!

I must confess, I have found that my life is rather boring. As I have continually tried to keep this blog up and running, I notice that I do not have much going on. I am applying for jobs. I hang out with my boyfriend. I talk about my best  friend. I listen to music. I do my chores. I mess around on facebook. Stay up until 3-5am. Get up around noon and repeat.
That is what happened today..er, well, yesterday. I went to bed around 5 or 6am, got up at 10 in order to do yard work before it got too hot here in the Central Valley of California. Around 1pm my boyfriend picked me up from my house and we hung out until 9pm. I got Starbucks on the way home as usual, the lady there knows me by name and has my order memorized. It is amazing. Anyways, so I talked to my best friend throughout the day. I filled out another job application and continued to log onto facebook. I began to work on cleaning my room and listened to music while I did this. I am currently logged off of facebook and sitting on my bed just kinda or reflecting on how structured my days are. Seeing as it is now 3am, I will be asleep in the next few hours.

The good news it that I got to build a fort today (yesterday) with my boyfriend. It took us a while o figure out how to build it, but then we finished it in less than ten miuets and we continued to watch Big Bang Theory (one of my absolue favorite TV shows) while sitting inside of it. It really made my day special.
I have found that I only ever really watch TV at his house, because watching TV at my house means a constant comentary from my father. My father is a very loud man, his voice carries through walls, and he has a number of volumes: Loud, Louder, Ticked, Chastizing, Frustrated/Political, Angry, and Protective Daddy are the main ones (listed in order of increasing volume).

Anywho...I guess it is time to push the repeat button and continue on to another day of the same thing. sounds fun, right? It does to me, I don't really like change. I adapt well, but change is never enjoyable. I like to have things in just a way, and when things get moved around I kind of panic. I like order to a point..and you probably don't get what I am trying to say, but that is okay because tere is still plenty of time for you blogger worldlings to understand.

Good Day Rant and Rage

I had a good day today..for the most part.
I got to spend a lot of quality time with my boyfriend. he took me to a park and pushed me on the swings. We watched an episode of Merlin. Hung out in the kitchen. Talked, laughed, hugged, kissed and just had an over all good day.
Then my mother took me home..
She and I got into a very big fight and now neither of us are speaking to each other. I ranted about it to a friend saying basically that I am sick of being targeted by my parents for not living up to their expecations. They like to pick on me as the dumb one in the family and I know that I am a very inelligant kid. It bothers me that they are being so strict about everything but they tell me to be my own person. It is like they wish I were someone else, why can't they be happy with who I am?
I just don't understand.

Anyways, so I have been super obsessed with (now don't judge me..) Bingo on Facebook, I think I have three or four different games to play on after I run out of chips for the day! Yeah..it is just that bad.

Other than that, the job hunt has been going okay, I got emails in saying my apps are being considered, so it really is just waiting on that call..so impatient haha part of me wishes they would call me now. I really need to get a job, I would love to be able to move out of my parents place. I think almost every kid thinks that, though. Right? Right.

"it's 5 o'cloock in the morning conversation got boring..."
such a good song. No seriously, it is 5am so I am heading off to bed. Good night/morning bloogger peoples, this little Miss is headed to Dream World.

Job Search and Shout Outs

So since I have been out of high school, I have been on the hunt for jobs. The places I would like to work won't hire me until I am 21. Oh, you know, the really cool places where a discount would be amazing..the gun shop, the shooting range..places like that. So I have been applying elsewhere, trying for jobs such as Dicks Sporting Goods and PetSmart and Styles. Hopefully these places hire me, a lot of them say that previous experience is recomended, but I have none of that because to have experience you need a job and to have a job you need experience which you get by obtaining a job which you need experience in order to land and it is just a never ending cycle of terror. I mean, really, I'll take any job I can get as long as I don't have to deal with other peoples food..I just..I cannot deal with other peoples food. I cannot. I can handle screaming customers who are angry because they can't find what they need, but I just might vomit if I have to deal with someone elses picked at half eaten leftovers..

Anyways, so the job search is going about as well as a red dress at a black and white ball, that is to say "I feel really out of place applying for all of these places because most of them I doubt would hire me because I don't think that I fit into their 'CompanyImage' like the other employees cause I have applied to both Hot Topic and Hollister and Ambercrombie and heck! I am even considering applying to Spencers even though I just might die if I had to work there!!!". Make sense?
Probably not..
Do I care?
Not really.
Should I?
Eh, maybe.

Also, today is a very good friend of my's birthday and I would just like to do a quick shout out to her. Happy birthday girly, you kniw who you are. And i forgot to do a shout out on Saturday to my guy friend who turned 18 finally, happy birthday dude, and don't you dare give into that Hello Kitty case (sorry for the inside joke)!

Okay, so I do believe that I am done for the night/morning. Good night/morning blogger world citizens, I shall return at a leter date..er..time haha. Who knows, I just might post again today XD

How I Know My Boyfriend Loves Me

I get really bad hallucinations sometimes, and they have been know to keep me up late at night just because they are so bad or so frightening. Well, tonight they have been horrible, and I won't go into detail of what I have been seeing. It is just not good, and several times I have almost screamed or cried. He didn't sleep all last night and then he stayed up tonight with me and did his best to keep me sane. He played a few of our favorite songs such as Perfect by Lights and All About Us by He Is We. then for hours he helped me translate the complicated language of doctors as I read to him what I found on the internet about hallucinations. He has been keeping me sane since 11pm and it is now 5:14am. I swear, I really do believe that I have the best boyfriend in the world. <3


That's all for now.

The 4th of July

So today was the 4th of July. Actually..that was yesterday, since it is currently 1am on the 5th.....but that is just a technicallity XD

I had a great 4th of July, I didn't get out of bed until noon and then I had an amazing shower and I had the most relaxing 4 hour Get-Ready-For-A-Party time and it was so relaxing. I had blue frayed shorts and a black T-shirt with a red bow in my hair! I loved my bow!!!!! Anyways, so I got to myboyfriends house and then from there the three of us (me him and his best friend) went to the party. It was okay, I always feel weird going to parties where I don't know anyone.
There weren't too many people close to my age, there were about 10 of us "kids" then a number of adults and a dog, then littler kids and it was all a very family-friendly event.
We played a card game called Maow (or however you spell it) and after watching one round I decided I didn't like it. But I played a round or two anyways..I shouldn't have. It was a lot of unspoken rules and stuff and I got really lost and confused and wasn't sure what to do.


ever noticce how distracting facebook can be? I just logged on real quick because a friend sent me a message on it and I wanted to see what she said..it's now 3:09am XD

sorry for the side note haha so I hope you all had a great 4th of July, hope you were all safe! I know we had fun and although we did a few really stupid things and some things that were probably more than a little idiotic, I enjoyed the party and the fireworks show. Tune in again! Maybe next ime I won't get so distracted hahaha.......not likely..

Fireworks and the Old Times

So....it is basically Independance Day. 11:55pm on the 3rd of July, and I just found out that my family has no fireworks. Great. This means another last minuet rush to the nearest stand to buy whatever they have left and hope they have some really good ones left otherwise it'll be lame.

Ready for some good news?
I think I might be able to spend the 4th with my boyfriend ^-^ okay, that is good news to me.
Bad News?
My bestie isn't here and I miss her!!!!!!! :(


Okay, so my brother and I are left home alone every now and then and it used to be really fun because we would build a giant fort in the living room, or have our Wrestling Tournement there, but now that we are older we sleep in until 1pm and them rush to get the list of chores done before the folks get home. I am really missing the good days when we knew how to have fun. His idea of fun is reading manga for hours on end and then watching anime. I sometimes wish I were able to sit down for long periods of time and just stare at a computer screen, but I can't. I get really restless and antsy. I have to move. It's funny because I like movies, but I have to force myself to be still and try to focus on it, so I always look angry when I watch them. My boyfriend says I look irritated, he says I get that same irritated look on my face when we are in a car, too. Irritated and quiet haha I only get like that because when I am in a car, I don't really feel safe..it's a giant box on wheels moving at speeds which humans otherwise shouldn't be moving at, and with my luck, something bad will happen. I'm not a big fan of being a passanger in a car. I'll drive, but otherwise..no. Just no.

Happy 4th of July!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be safe, all of you, and don't do anything too stupid. Don't make the pigs angry and have a blast (haha blast, get it? fireworks are like...they go boom and.....ok..joke killed..) ^-^

A Little More About Me =D

Hey!! Hello to all off you blogger peoples out there reading this! Nice to ..uh.....meet you? I guess that is the right wording, or should I say.....oh forget it haha welcome to another post by me, Riku =D

So, I figure unless you know me personally, you know basically nothing about me! And that would really suck because I think that I am an amazing person ^-^

I am 18 years old, still living with my parents (they don't make me pay rent or anything and I get along with them really well so it all works out), and granduated from high school last month. My room is a good size, not super large or anything, but I like it. I painted the walls a cranberry bog color which my parents hate. I have a TON of antiques and stuff in my rooom, my sisters always joke that it is an antique shop. My room is always an organized chaos, which bugs me sometimes but I never seem to be able to have enough time to clean it.

My favorite animal is a snake, I love all snakes, they are so beautiful! I like all animals, don't get me wrong, it's just that I like snakes the most ^-^

I have been a vegitarian for about 2 years and 7ish months, no, I don't miss meat haha (people ask me that a lot so I'm clearifying [SPELLCHECK!!!] it now) My sister and I went veggie at the same time. We might go vegan for a little while, but if we do, it will be temporary because we both live off of cheese and ice cream and chocolate XD

I am a very copetative person, I like to win. The only problem is that I am also super lazy. My bestie often tells me that I am the most competative lazy person she has ever met.

I am quite easily distracted, but I mutitask all the time.

I don't have a favorite color, or number, or letter, or day or month.

I love Holloween and New Years Eve, but I really don't care for Christmas or Thanksgiving. My friends think I'm crazy because I don't like to ge gifts or to have people spend money on me. I like to earn things, not have things given to me. Still, I am kind of spoiled..but at least I admit to it!

Uhmmm.......I can't think of anything else to say to you peoples of the blogging world, so if you have any other questions just ask. I love questions, that is another thing about me! I love to ask and answer questions! I'll check up with you all later and post again soon!! I think..hahaha neer know what tomorrow holds, so take every day for what it is.

Later!!! ^-^

Good Day, Bad Day

Today started off as a good day. Keep in mind my wording here. Started. I got up at 7:40 for a shower and then it was off to church at 8:30. The service was great, I really enjoy church, it always makes me happy. I'm not overly church-y or anything, but the enviornment at my church is just amazing and I grew up there so I guess that makes sense. I feel at home there, safe, you know? Besides, I got to see my best friend (who live in another city) and my boyfriend.

It just so happens that my best friend is going back to her home city today, so I went to her house for a little BestieBondingTime after church. During this time, my family went out to lunch, which is normal. Afterwards, my mother was dropped off at the house while the boys went to The Range! I was so upset!!

Perhaps I should have told you first that my dad and I are shooting addicts. We go to The Range (which really is the name of the shooting range we go to) every month or so for bonding time. My younger brother (the only brother at the house) isn't into shooting. He really doesn't even like it. So the fact that he went to The Range and didn't tell me makes me angry, the fact that my dad took my brother and not me just pushes me over the egde because me brother has no interest in shooting.

Anyways, that was the bad part of my day. Other than the fact that my boyfriend was really upset and I wish he weren't. I don't like it when he is upset, I always just want to fix it but I never know how to...sadface = (

I got BestieBondingTime!!!! BestieBondingTime is where me and my bestie get alone time and we share everything that has been going on and sometimes it is very serious, other times is it very sad, and other times it is super happy ^-^ this time it was super happy mixed in with seriousness.

OHMEGAWWD!!!!!!! I hate Justin Beiber, I can't even ssay sorry about it, but his new song, Boyfriend, makes me want to dance. EWW!!!! I'm dancing around my room to a JB song XD oh goodness I have no life haha

"I'd like to be everything you want, hey girl let me talk to you."
"No!! I thought you were gay!! Get away!!"
"If I was your man-"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA You mean 'if i was a man' XD"

that's what I think in my head as he sings that song haha

Well, I guess that is pretty much all I can say, I feel weird posting in the middle of the...er..well...it's not really middle of anything, it's like 7ish. Mid-evening? haha I am so going to start calling this awkward middle of the evening time Mid-Evening.

Good Mid-Evening, everyone, I think I will reorganize my room now, it could really use some reorganizing. And then tonight I'm going to plug in the strobe light and dance around my reorganized room to crazy techno music! It's gonna be a blast!! Be jealous, blogging world, be very jealous.