Hey everyone!
So I know it's been a long time, but I have a few perfecctly valid reasons why I haven't been posting anything. I had a bunch of tests and essays due in all my classes, my boyfriend lost his grandmother whom he was living with and now he might be kicked out by his grandfather, my friends have been dragging me around trying to get me to do things with them and I just haven't had the time or the will to sit down and post something for your entertainment. Sorry. :/
Now then, let's talk about what is really on my mind right now. Cigarettes. Okay I know what you are thinking, "Riku, you smoke? Why? It's so bad for you!" Yeah I know, I've heard this all before. Trust me, my mother works for the county health department, she won't stop telling me these things. It's just that I am a social smoker, which means that if I am with a group of people and one of them lights up, I feel like I should light up as well. The weird thing is, I could go a long time without smoking, but since it is a great stress relief and adds another social aspect to my life, I'd really rather not quit. Besides that, there are two cigarettes that I look forward to every week and it just so happens that those are the two cigarettes that I smoke by myself.
The first is the one that I smoke every Wednesday night on my way back to the house after AWANA get's out. I help out with the K-2nd graders and i love them, they are a great little group of kids. When I get to the church, I meet up with my friend, we each buy one slice of cheese pizza and one soda, then we sit in my truck until AWANA starts. Afterwards we come back to the truck and wait for her brother to come ad pick her up. The whole thing is really relaxing and after she leaves and I am driving, I light up a cigarette. That is generally the best cigarette of the week because almost all of the conditions are right. I'm not super stressed, I've had recent human interaction which was worth while and I don't have to worry about the next day. Plus, I have half a soda to go with my cigarette which is really just icing on the cake.
The second smoke I look forward to is the one of Friday night. Can I just start this off to say that for some odd reason, smoking on Friday is generally just amazing? Great, thanks haha moving on. So I take my little brother to a Magic shop here in town where he plays in tournaments for hours every Friday night. I used to play too, but then shit happened and now I just hang out for a while, catch up with the guys there and then take off. Well after I take off, I light up a cigarette while I'm driving and that is also generally a really great cigarette.
Other than those two, I never really smoke while I drive. I don't care for the smell it will leave on the seats or the hassle of flicking the ash, turning, ignoring dirty looks and other such things. I don't know why, but those two instances I just told you guys about, those really are the best cigs I could ever smoke alone. I mean, I smoke all the time with my boyfriend in his car (that'll be a later post. You'll need to see pictures to believe it haha) but I generally don't care for people smoking in my truck. I smoke at school surrounded by all of my friends, but that is social smoking, not so much for the cigarette but for the enjoyment of other peoples company and there is something about sharing a cigarette with someone that really makes me feel like I'm that much closer to that person.
Anyway....XD I have a whole day to get through so I'm taking off.
Goodbye everyone
Stay Beautiful
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Thursday, March 6, 2014
Sunday, February 9, 2014
A Day Without Injury :)
Hey Everyone!
So my day started off amazing :D I woke up, stayed home from church, smoked a few cigarettes and studied for my religions test (which is tomorrow). I mean, my morning sounds kind of boring, but I actually really enjoyed it ^-^ that's what matters right? I couldn't stop smiling all morning haha
And then my family got back. My family and I really don't get along very well, but it is even worse when they are fighting among themselves because they have all of this anger that is building up and I guess I'm like a key that opens up the bottle of all their frustration. Yeah, they take everything out on me. No, I'm seriously not saying all of this to make you all feel bad for me, I'm saying this as an honest statement. My family generally takes out their anger by yelling at me or in some cases hitting me. For the most part it isn't a violent household, I'm easily the most violent one living here at the moment but tat comes from me not really wanting to scream and yell back because that has never proven to solve anything. If my siblings were pissing me off, instead of screaming at them I would just hit them hard enough to make them cry. It shut them up real fast and then I got to go play in my room by myself for a week (grounded). That is how I solve my problems, and yes, this will eventually get me into real trouble and maybe jail one day, but that day isn't today.
Yeah so my family came home and they were all upset with each other, dad being annoying, my brother silently glaring at anyone who tried to talk to him and my mother openly arguing with anyone who dared to speak. Guess who asked how church went because she didn't properly gauge the situation first...this chick. I smart. I asked how church was and my dad answers first by saying "I'm not talking to myself!!!! Church was great!" and then glaring at my mother. My mother then went off yelling at him while holding a knife and at that point I just walked off.
Part of me misses when my parents fought behind closed doors while they thought we were asleep. This past year or so they have started fighting in front of me at least once a week or so and I am seriously waiting for someone to get shot or stabbed.
Hope you all had a better day than I did haha
Good night and happy dreams
Stay Beautiful
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Saturday, February 8, 2014
A Good Day with Ice Cream
Hey Everyone!!!
Today was a good day for me, there wasn't really a single sad moment which was a nice change of pace haha I even smiled for real a couple of times :D
My morning started off at 11:45 am when my boyfriend texted me until I woke up to see if I could come hang out with him. I was there until 4:30 or so which was nice. We hung out, drove around, bought cigarettes, drank amazing coffee with milk and sugar, messed around a little and had deep conversations about the future and kids and our pasts. I'm no where near ready to talk about spending a lifetime with a person or getting married or even talking about our relationship in terms of years yet, but I am really lucky to have this kid in my life. He really does care about me and I want to be a part of his life because I guess in a sense we need each other. Right now both of us are going through shit and it's nice to have that one person who we can talk to and tell our problems while standing outside in the cold and sharing a few smokes. It's just really great.
After I got back to the house, I took my little brother to Magic night. There were a ton of people there, my ex included. Now I don't know if I have told you guys or not, but my ex and I went from being really close to zero contact and I hated it because I really did love being around him and I enjoyed his company so when he left I really did hurt for a long time (I got with my current boyfriend actually as a rebound, but it turned serious so...this is all another story for another time haha). Tonight I saw him and the first thing I thought was "He looks happy." and that is when I smiled a real smile, because I knew that he was doing alright. Honestly, I'm glad that he is happy, he really does look good :) and we even talked a little (yes, I may have initiated. I miss talking to him, can you blame me?). I think this is a good sign that we can mend our friendship, hopefully it is, I mean, we didn't hug or anything but talking is the first step, right? Besides that, I kicked his ass in Magic haha which was a GREAT feeling because I had always had difficulty beating him and to win with a deck I had put together by myself in Standard format, I mean, it was a pretty good feeling.
Other than all of that, I got to see a few of my friends who I have missed a lot. Everyone looks happy and I am so excited that they are all doing so well. I got a free bowl of mint ice cream from Cold Stone, one of my friends bought it for me because I didn't have any money and she was sad I couldn't afford it (or something along those lines).
Yeah so I have had a great day. I have church in the morning though so I need to get some sleep.
Good night all, happy dreams
Stay Beautiful.
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Today was a good day for me, there wasn't really a single sad moment which was a nice change of pace haha I even smiled for real a couple of times :D
My morning started off at 11:45 am when my boyfriend texted me until I woke up to see if I could come hang out with him. I was there until 4:30 or so which was nice. We hung out, drove around, bought cigarettes, drank amazing coffee with milk and sugar, messed around a little and had deep conversations about the future and kids and our pasts. I'm no where near ready to talk about spending a lifetime with a person or getting married or even talking about our relationship in terms of years yet, but I am really lucky to have this kid in my life. He really does care about me and I want to be a part of his life because I guess in a sense we need each other. Right now both of us are going through shit and it's nice to have that one person who we can talk to and tell our problems while standing outside in the cold and sharing a few smokes. It's just really great.
After I got back to the house, I took my little brother to Magic night. There were a ton of people there, my ex included. Now I don't know if I have told you guys or not, but my ex and I went from being really close to zero contact and I hated it because I really did love being around him and I enjoyed his company so when he left I really did hurt for a long time (I got with my current boyfriend actually as a rebound, but it turned serious so...this is all another story for another time haha). Tonight I saw him and the first thing I thought was "He looks happy." and that is when I smiled a real smile, because I knew that he was doing alright. Honestly, I'm glad that he is happy, he really does look good :) and we even talked a little (yes, I may have initiated. I miss talking to him, can you blame me?). I think this is a good sign that we can mend our friendship, hopefully it is, I mean, we didn't hug or anything but talking is the first step, right? Besides that, I kicked his ass in Magic haha which was a GREAT feeling because I had always had difficulty beating him and to win with a deck I had put together by myself in Standard format, I mean, it was a pretty good feeling.
Other than all of that, I got to see a few of my friends who I have missed a lot. Everyone looks happy and I am so excited that they are all doing so well. I got a free bowl of mint ice cream from Cold Stone, one of my friends bought it for me because I didn't have any money and she was sad I couldn't afford it (or something along those lines).
Yeah so I have had a great day. I have church in the morning though so I need to get some sleep.
Good night all, happy dreams
Stay Beautiful.
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Friday, February 7, 2014
Burn The Test hahaha
Hey everyone!!!
So I've been really upset these past few days and I have been trying to put on a good face and act like everything is okay but really I'm dying on the inside and I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me. I mean, I'm not fighting with my best friend, in fact things between the two of us have been really great. I'm on good terms with my friends, which is a rare thing for me since I'm generally a disagreeable person. I have a great boyfriend who bought me Taco Bell (my favorite fast food) this morning and has been sharing his cigarettes with me since I haven't been able to buy them for myself after I ran out. I'm talking to my parents like we are all adults and without raising my voice which is the most incredible thing and the most rare of all things in my life. I just. I don't know, I mean, could I just be anxious that this is the calm before the storm? Am I jumping the gun a little? I mean, I can't really think of a time where life has been much better than it is right now. I want to be okay and enjoy the quiet that has become my life, but I just can't help but want to scream and kick and cry because I'm not happy. I don't know what the hell my problem is, but I can't seem to just be happy. Yesterday I actually did break down. I'm not sure how it happened, but one moment I was sitting in my room working on simple math problems the next minuet I'm hugging my pillow and trying to muffle my sobs so my dad doesn't hear them. That's not normal.
Yeah so I think there is something wrong with me, maybe I'm just mental haha that would explain a lot ^-^ I've been listening to this song on repeat almost nonstop the last few days, that might have something to do with my depression as well...
Click Here to Hear the Song I have Been Obsessing Over
Anyway, So I took a test in Math on Monday and got the result on Wednesday. I got the only 100% in the class and the first thing I did after leaving class was head off to the smokers tables to have a celebratory burning of the scantron XD I set it on fire and placed it in the ashtray while my friends and I all watched it burn. That truly was a happy moment for me, one of the highlights from my week :)
Well, I'm going to head out now, do something productive with my life.
Time to work out until I can't move lol
Stay Beautiful
^-^
So I've been really upset these past few days and I have been trying to put on a good face and act like everything is okay but really I'm dying on the inside and I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me. I mean, I'm not fighting with my best friend, in fact things between the two of us have been really great. I'm on good terms with my friends, which is a rare thing for me since I'm generally a disagreeable person. I have a great boyfriend who bought me Taco Bell (my favorite fast food) this morning and has been sharing his cigarettes with me since I haven't been able to buy them for myself after I ran out. I'm talking to my parents like we are all adults and without raising my voice which is the most incredible thing and the most rare of all things in my life. I just. I don't know, I mean, could I just be anxious that this is the calm before the storm? Am I jumping the gun a little? I mean, I can't really think of a time where life has been much better than it is right now. I want to be okay and enjoy the quiet that has become my life, but I just can't help but want to scream and kick and cry because I'm not happy. I don't know what the hell my problem is, but I can't seem to just be happy. Yesterday I actually did break down. I'm not sure how it happened, but one moment I was sitting in my room working on simple math problems the next minuet I'm hugging my pillow and trying to muffle my sobs so my dad doesn't hear them. That's not normal.
Yeah so I think there is something wrong with me, maybe I'm just mental haha that would explain a lot ^-^ I've been listening to this song on repeat almost nonstop the last few days, that might have something to do with my depression as well...
Click Here to Hear the Song I have Been Obsessing Over
Anyway, So I took a test in Math on Monday and got the result on Wednesday. I got the only 100% in the class and the first thing I did after leaving class was head off to the smokers tables to have a celebratory burning of the scantron XD I set it on fire and placed it in the ashtray while my friends and I all watched it burn. That truly was a happy moment for me, one of the highlights from my week :)
Well, I'm going to head out now, do something productive with my life.
Time to work out until I can't move lol
Stay Beautiful
^-^
Sunday, January 26, 2014
Coming to Terms with my Life.
Hey Everyone!!!
So I've finally come to terms with my life. I know, I know, I've said it all before "I'm finally happy, life is good, I'm perfectly fine with how everything is in the world at the moment." No. I'm not saying that everything in the world is perfect. I'm not saying that I am finally happy. I'm not even saying that I'm fine with how my life is turning out. All I want to say is that I have come to terms with the facts of my life, and the next step I need to take is clearly set before me. I don't like it. But I at least know what I have to do and why. That's a big deal for me.
Anyway. So yeah, I know I kind of disappeared for a while even though I promised to try and daily blog for you guys. I said I'd try, I never said that I would succeed haha so yeah.. Life happens and sometimes you just have to roll with it. I know you guys don't want to hear my excuses so I won't bore you all with the details. I'll just summarize it all to say this: Life happened, college got crazy, friends got freaky, family flipped, cousins grew up, cigarettes got smoked and music was blasted.
Now, back to "coming to terms" XD
I don't have a terrible present life, my past life (while not exactly the most average) isn't completely horrid either, and at the moment my future is honestly a fuzzy mystery. What I want to tell you all is a bit of a confession about my current goings ons I guess. As of this moment I am 19, which seems like a good place to start as it gives you the idea that, yeah, I probably still have quite a bit of life to live. Now let me add in the fact that I will most likely not live past the age of 30, nor do I really care to. Why? I've never felt the need. My rib cage is slowly caving inward, pressing my sternum against everything inside of me, that's one reason. I've done a number of drugs (past tense) and quite a bit of drinking (also past tense) not to mention all of the cigarettes (past and present tenses for this one..) that I have smoked, then add to that all of the physical mental and emotional damage that I have endured. Yeah, no I really do think that 30 is a ripe old age for me, thank you. I've come to terms with this fact that I have a short life left to live. I'm actually embracing it, which is a big reason why I've decided to do what makes me happy now, while I can.
I've come to terms with the fact that my family doesn't care for my boyfriend, and I've also come to terms with the fact that he and I are not going to last forever. He knows that as well as I do and we have agreed that as long as we still make each other happy, we'll stay together because that's just the way we are, two people looking for something good to hold onto in life, even if that good thing will only last for a few months, or maybe even just a few more days. Who knows how long he and I will be together, I'm enjoying the right now, as everyone should.
Also, I've come to terms with the fact that my ex really just isn't ready to be my friend, not even ready to see me or talk to me or any of that, and although I have come to terms with this fact I still look forward to the day when he and I can maybe talk again like we used to because I do miss just talking to him.
I have come to terms with the fact that my best friend and I are seriously messed up, and I know it is entirely my fault and I know we will never be the way we once were. I'm sorry about this because the damage has been done and the scars have been made, battle lines drawn and weapons raised between the two of us and I can only hope for an ending without blood. But I've come to terms with the fact that she and I may have to part without another word, and I've come to terms with the fact that I am and most likely always will be in love with her. And that is one thing that I am truly okay with.
I've come to terms with the fact that I have feelings for two guys whom I don't deserve. One who lives in another town, who gave me one of the best weekends of my life and made me feel perfectly safe, even if just for a few moments. To that guy, thank you, I could never deserve you and I hope that one day our paths will cross at a good time for both of us and you'll remember me for the good and not the bad. The other guy who has the ability to put me at ease with just one look. I have come to terms with my feelings for you, but I fear being near you. I don't want to hurt you, I have always hurt those I love (one thing I have never been able to come to terms with, nor fix) and I can't stand the thought of hurting you. Please. If you knew what was best for yourself, you would stay away from me, keep me at a distance. Please. I like you, I know I do, I have accepted this, so please heed my warning and don't let me near.
Lastly, I have come to terms with the fact that I have no idea where I am headed or what I am doing with my life. First I wanted to be a model, then a designer, then a novelist, now I have no clue what I am doing with my life. All I know is that I want to do something I love, be around people that make me happy and live with someone who can make me smile when I want nothing more than to break down and cry (as I often do).
Yeah so hat's my little tid bit for you guys haha good night, have a nice life and all that jazz
Remember to smile every once in a while
Love you!!!
^-^
So I've finally come to terms with my life. I know, I know, I've said it all before "I'm finally happy, life is good, I'm perfectly fine with how everything is in the world at the moment." No. I'm not saying that everything in the world is perfect. I'm not saying that I am finally happy. I'm not even saying that I'm fine with how my life is turning out. All I want to say is that I have come to terms with the facts of my life, and the next step I need to take is clearly set before me. I don't like it. But I at least know what I have to do and why. That's a big deal for me.
Anyway. So yeah, I know I kind of disappeared for a while even though I promised to try and daily blog for you guys. I said I'd try, I never said that I would succeed haha so yeah.. Life happens and sometimes you just have to roll with it. I know you guys don't want to hear my excuses so I won't bore you all with the details. I'll just summarize it all to say this: Life happened, college got crazy, friends got freaky, family flipped, cousins grew up, cigarettes got smoked and music was blasted.
Now, back to "coming to terms" XD
I don't have a terrible present life, my past life (while not exactly the most average) isn't completely horrid either, and at the moment my future is honestly a fuzzy mystery. What I want to tell you all is a bit of a confession about my current goings ons I guess. As of this moment I am 19, which seems like a good place to start as it gives you the idea that, yeah, I probably still have quite a bit of life to live. Now let me add in the fact that I will most likely not live past the age of 30, nor do I really care to. Why? I've never felt the need. My rib cage is slowly caving inward, pressing my sternum against everything inside of me, that's one reason. I've done a number of drugs (past tense) and quite a bit of drinking (also past tense) not to mention all of the cigarettes (past and present tenses for this one..) that I have smoked, then add to that all of the physical mental and emotional damage that I have endured. Yeah, no I really do think that 30 is a ripe old age for me, thank you. I've come to terms with this fact that I have a short life left to live. I'm actually embracing it, which is a big reason why I've decided to do what makes me happy now, while I can.
I've come to terms with the fact that my family doesn't care for my boyfriend, and I've also come to terms with the fact that he and I are not going to last forever. He knows that as well as I do and we have agreed that as long as we still make each other happy, we'll stay together because that's just the way we are, two people looking for something good to hold onto in life, even if that good thing will only last for a few months, or maybe even just a few more days. Who knows how long he and I will be together, I'm enjoying the right now, as everyone should.
Also, I've come to terms with the fact that my ex really just isn't ready to be my friend, not even ready to see me or talk to me or any of that, and although I have come to terms with this fact I still look forward to the day when he and I can maybe talk again like we used to because I do miss just talking to him.
I have come to terms with the fact that my best friend and I are seriously messed up, and I know it is entirely my fault and I know we will never be the way we once were. I'm sorry about this because the damage has been done and the scars have been made, battle lines drawn and weapons raised between the two of us and I can only hope for an ending without blood. But I've come to terms with the fact that she and I may have to part without another word, and I've come to terms with the fact that I am and most likely always will be in love with her. And that is one thing that I am truly okay with.
I've come to terms with the fact that I have feelings for two guys whom I don't deserve. One who lives in another town, who gave me one of the best weekends of my life and made me feel perfectly safe, even if just for a few moments. To that guy, thank you, I could never deserve you and I hope that one day our paths will cross at a good time for both of us and you'll remember me for the good and not the bad. The other guy who has the ability to put me at ease with just one look. I have come to terms with my feelings for you, but I fear being near you. I don't want to hurt you, I have always hurt those I love (one thing I have never been able to come to terms with, nor fix) and I can't stand the thought of hurting you. Please. If you knew what was best for yourself, you would stay away from me, keep me at a distance. Please. I like you, I know I do, I have accepted this, so please heed my warning and don't let me near.
Lastly, I have come to terms with the fact that I have no idea where I am headed or what I am doing with my life. First I wanted to be a model, then a designer, then a novelist, now I have no clue what I am doing with my life. All I know is that I want to do something I love, be around people that make me happy and live with someone who can make me smile when I want nothing more than to break down and cry (as I often do).
Yeah so hat's my little tid bit for you guys haha good night, have a nice life and all that jazz
Remember to smile every once in a while
Love you!!!
^-^
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
Last Night....Crazy.
Hey everyone!!! Sorry for not posting last night, but things got kind of crazy hahahaha
So my friend stayed the night with me and I don't like to blog while I have people over because this isn't really something that I can do very quickly lol So my guy friend who was supposed to get his tattoo didn't get to get it :/ again. The artist is having a ton of problems and she ended up with a huge migraine after she was ready to start inking him up so she is cutting his price in half and he'll be going in on Thursday to get it (hopefully this time it actually happens haha).
Anyway, back to my friend. So she stayed the night at my place last night and we were up all night and it was like 11:30 or so and we wanted to smoke but had only one left so we decided to walk to the gas station that is like two miles from my house (the closest gas station). Well we started walking and by the time we got there it was like 12:30 or something and the station was closed, which really is just our luck. So we sat there for a while just talking and hanging out, it was great until we realized that we had to walk all the way back without any cigs D:
So I called my boyfriend and had him come get us, well we managed to convince him (really, it was more of "hey can you take us to get cigs?" "sure, do you have money and an id?" "yes" "let's go!") to find a 24/7 place that sold cigs and we got lucky and the first one we went to was open. Just his luck lol
The guy was super nice and he discounted the coffee and soda to a dollar for us ^-^ plus we got cigs and we stood outide talking to him until like 2 in the morning!
Needless to say it was a ton of fun :)
My friend and I got a ride back to my place so we didn't have to walk, which was really nice of my boyfriend, and she and I were up until like 5 in the morning just talking and messing around like girls do hahaha
She didn't sleep at all, though she doesn't really sleep anyway, I think I may have gotten like two or three hours? Yeah, my night was great ^-^
Have a good day everyone
Stay awesome
and
Keep Beautiful
^-^
Bye!
So my friend stayed the night with me and I don't like to blog while I have people over because this isn't really something that I can do very quickly lol So my guy friend who was supposed to get his tattoo didn't get to get it :/ again. The artist is having a ton of problems and she ended up with a huge migraine after she was ready to start inking him up so she is cutting his price in half and he'll be going in on Thursday to get it (hopefully this time it actually happens haha).
Anyway, back to my friend. So she stayed the night at my place last night and we were up all night and it was like 11:30 or so and we wanted to smoke but had only one left so we decided to walk to the gas station that is like two miles from my house (the closest gas station). Well we started walking and by the time we got there it was like 12:30 or something and the station was closed, which really is just our luck. So we sat there for a while just talking and hanging out, it was great until we realized that we had to walk all the way back without any cigs D:
So I called my boyfriend and had him come get us, well we managed to convince him (really, it was more of "hey can you take us to get cigs?" "sure, do you have money and an id?" "yes" "let's go!") to find a 24/7 place that sold cigs and we got lucky and the first one we went to was open. Just his luck lol
The guy was super nice and he discounted the coffee and soda to a dollar for us ^-^ plus we got cigs and we stood outide talking to him until like 2 in the morning!
Needless to say it was a ton of fun :)
My friend and I got a ride back to my place so we didn't have to walk, which was really nice of my boyfriend, and she and I were up until like 5 in the morning just talking and messing around like girls do hahaha
She didn't sleep at all, though she doesn't really sleep anyway, I think I may have gotten like two or three hours? Yeah, my night was great ^-^
Have a good day everyone
Stay awesome
and
Keep Beautiful
^-^
Bye!
Monday, January 6, 2014
Body Tattoo
Hey everyone! So I have been thinking all day about tattoos, and yes, I do eventually want to have my upper half covered with tattoos. I want to have the left and back of my neck, my entire back, both of my sides, and my stomach to be inked. Honestly, it will probably never happen, but I love the idea hahaha The only problem is that I have a needle issue lol so I guess as soon as I get over that, I'll be getting inked up XD
I've always loved tattoos, ever since I was a little girl. The idea of having something on you for the rest of your life has always been so amazing to me, and I would see people with tats all up their arms and my first thought was always to talk to them and ask about their ink. My conservative and very religious parents on the other hand would never think that. My entire family is really very anti tattoo, it's rather irritating. So just the fact that they are fairly okay with my going with one of my friends to get his first tattoo, is seriously a miracle. Honestly.
I do have a few thoughts about tattoos though, I mean, they will be there pretty much for the rest of your life. You should probably get something that you won't regret. Basic right? Make sure everything is spelled correctly. Also, basic. I mean, this is on your body permanently. It would be a bit embarrassing to have something misspelled on your body, knowing it is there for the rest of your life. It would SUCK. And it drives me crazy when people are all like "Yeah, this one is "I love you" in French!" and the Tattoo says "J'adore" or something. No. Just no. If you get something in another language, please triple check the spelling and triple check that the words actually mean what you think they do. Lastly, if you get a tattoo, please get something that is meaningful to you. Yeah, it is awesome to have an epic looking tattoo, but I think it is so much better to have something that means the world to you. Yeah, get a giant dragon covering your back, but please, have a really great reason for it. I had a friend who let the tattoo artist pick the design for his first tattoo because he just wanted a tattoo. He got a giant green four leaf clover with a banner saying "Lucky Ink" or something like that on it. So please. If you get a tattoo, know what you want, make sure everything is correct and make it meaningful.
Okay, that's all. I love you guys!
Have a great night!
Bye!!!
^-^
I've always loved tattoos, ever since I was a little girl. The idea of having something on you for the rest of your life has always been so amazing to me, and I would see people with tats all up their arms and my first thought was always to talk to them and ask about their ink. My conservative and very religious parents on the other hand would never think that. My entire family is really very anti tattoo, it's rather irritating. So just the fact that they are fairly okay with my going with one of my friends to get his first tattoo, is seriously a miracle. Honestly.
I do have a few thoughts about tattoos though, I mean, they will be there pretty much for the rest of your life. You should probably get something that you won't regret. Basic right? Make sure everything is spelled correctly. Also, basic. I mean, this is on your body permanently. It would be a bit embarrassing to have something misspelled on your body, knowing it is there for the rest of your life. It would SUCK. And it drives me crazy when people are all like "Yeah, this one is "I love you" in French!" and the Tattoo says "J'adore" or something. No. Just no. If you get something in another language, please triple check the spelling and triple check that the words actually mean what you think they do. Lastly, if you get a tattoo, please get something that is meaningful to you. Yeah, it is awesome to have an epic looking tattoo, but I think it is so much better to have something that means the world to you. Yeah, get a giant dragon covering your back, but please, have a really great reason for it. I had a friend who let the tattoo artist pick the design for his first tattoo because he just wanted a tattoo. He got a giant green four leaf clover with a banner saying "Lucky Ink" or something like that on it. So please. If you get a tattoo, know what you want, make sure everything is correct and make it meaningful.
Okay, that's all. I love you guys!
Have a great night!
Bye!!!
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Sunday, January 5, 2014
Two New Bras!!!!! :D
Hey guys, yeah so far this is day three of my daily blogging experience and blog number two. really, this isn't looking very good for me haha but oh well, I'm having fun still and I am still just going about my day doing what makes me happy.
Kind of.
Saturday was a normal enough day, I took my brother to Magic Night and it was great until one of the guys told me that my ex refused to stay and play Magic because I was there. That kind of got me riled up because when we broke up he told me that I had to keep coming to Magic Night because I was basically "one of the guys" and that he didn't want to lose a Magic Buddy. That was actually the main reason I have been going, I want to still be his friend and I want to still do things with him like hang out and play Magic (which he introduced me to, by the way), but I guess that was hoping for too much. So I decided that I will take a break from Saturday night magic, I'll still drop off my little brother, but I am not staying. When I got back to the house last night, I was so pissed off about it that I seriously locked myself in my room and just worked out until like 4 in the morning. My boyfriend said that I sounded like a guy because I kept telling him that I was working out. I seriouslsy did like six hours of working out and stretching and drinking water and working out some more and then more stretching. I was dripping sweat when I finished and I woke up at 7 in the morning on the floor, that's when I moved to my bed haha
That brings me to Sunday.
Victoria Secret Semi Annual Sale.
Yes.
I got two bras ^-^ and I am so happy about it, but really sad that I didn't get to go with my bestie :(
I saw her today, by the way, she looked super adorable. And then she had her troublesome boyfriend along with her and he looked like he always does, happy with her. She is happy with him though so I was glad he was there. Honestly, the fact that she has someone who makes her happy is so amazing, if he ever hurt her I would kill him because she is basically my world.
Also, I told my mother about my open relationship. She was really less than pleased and repeatedly called my a hussy. Yeah, thanks a lot mom haha
Yeah, that is the gist of how my days have gone, Tomorrow I am taking my brother to The Shop (Collectors Paradise) and hopefully it will be fun ^-^
Anyways, I'm gonna work out again tonight since it was actually a lot of fun last night, maybe I'll make this a routine....maybe XD
Bye everyone!!!
^-^
Kind of.
Saturday was a normal enough day, I took my brother to Magic Night and it was great until one of the guys told me that my ex refused to stay and play Magic because I was there. That kind of got me riled up because when we broke up he told me that I had to keep coming to Magic Night because I was basically "one of the guys" and that he didn't want to lose a Magic Buddy. That was actually the main reason I have been going, I want to still be his friend and I want to still do things with him like hang out and play Magic (which he introduced me to, by the way), but I guess that was hoping for too much. So I decided that I will take a break from Saturday night magic, I'll still drop off my little brother, but I am not staying. When I got back to the house last night, I was so pissed off about it that I seriously locked myself in my room and just worked out until like 4 in the morning. My boyfriend said that I sounded like a guy because I kept telling him that I was working out. I seriouslsy did like six hours of working out and stretching and drinking water and working out some more and then more stretching. I was dripping sweat when I finished and I woke up at 7 in the morning on the floor, that's when I moved to my bed haha
That brings me to Sunday.
Victoria Secret Semi Annual Sale.
Yes.
I got two bras ^-^ and I am so happy about it, but really sad that I didn't get to go with my bestie :(
I saw her today, by the way, she looked super adorable. And then she had her troublesome boyfriend along with her and he looked like he always does, happy with her. She is happy with him though so I was glad he was there. Honestly, the fact that she has someone who makes her happy is so amazing, if he ever hurt her I would kill him because she is basically my world.
Also, I told my mother about my open relationship. She was really less than pleased and repeatedly called my a hussy. Yeah, thanks a lot mom haha
Yeah, that is the gist of how my days have gone, Tomorrow I am taking my brother to The Shop (Collectors Paradise) and hopefully it will be fun ^-^
Anyways, I'm gonna work out again tonight since it was actually a lot of fun last night, maybe I'll make this a routine....maybe XD
Bye everyone!!!
^-^
Friday, January 3, 2014
Daily Blogging
Hey everyone, so I've decided that I want to start daily blogging. *scream*of*terror* Yeah yeah yeah I know, "Daily blogging? Girl you crazy." Well, I just figured that since I can never think of just one or two things to put into this blog so it flows fairly nicely, I might as well start doing this daily. It could very well turn into a journal that you all hate or even a diary that everyone reads, but I guess that with the new year, since I am doing what makes me happy, I might as well give it a try haha try new things, you guys and maybe you'll find something you love to do ^-^
Okay, so since I decided to start daily blogging, today is as good a night as any to begin.
I woke up this morning in a guys bed. No. Not my boyfriends bed. I woke up in another guys bed.
Okay! It's out there. I swear, it's not nearly as bad as it sounds!!! I stayed the night with one of my guy friends because I was way too tired to drive home, honestly, I was kinda scared I would crash lol and that would be no good. So I stayed at his house. His parents didn't know I was staying the night. I guess I was kind of snuck in and snuck out, which was a weird feeling. I spent the day today with him and one of my other female friends. There is a weird little trio forming between the three of us and I honestly don't like the way it is turning out. People are beginning to feel things they shouldn't and do things they shouldn't and we are all beginning to get more physical than we should. I don't know.. it's just not okay with me the way we are turning out. So now I am sitting here at 6:20pm, eating my dinner of leftover rice and veggies while watching The Holiday thinking everything over. On top of all that, I have another job offer that I need to think over and I still need to talk to my boyfriend about our relationship........yeah, oh well. I guess now I should sit here and enjoy my movie :)
Okay, so since I decided to start daily blogging, today is as good a night as any to begin.
I woke up this morning in a guys bed. No. Not my boyfriends bed. I woke up in another guys bed.
Okay! It's out there. I swear, it's not nearly as bad as it sounds!!! I stayed the night with one of my guy friends because I was way too tired to drive home, honestly, I was kinda scared I would crash lol and that would be no good. So I stayed at his house. His parents didn't know I was staying the night. I guess I was kind of snuck in and snuck out, which was a weird feeling. I spent the day today with him and one of my other female friends. There is a weird little trio forming between the three of us and I honestly don't like the way it is turning out. People are beginning to feel things they shouldn't and do things they shouldn't and we are all beginning to get more physical than we should. I don't know.. it's just not okay with me the way we are turning out. So now I am sitting here at 6:20pm, eating my dinner of leftover rice and veggies while watching The Holiday thinking everything over. On top of all that, I have another job offer that I need to think over and I still need to talk to my boyfriend about our relationship........yeah, oh well. I guess now I should sit here and enjoy my movie :)
Thursday, January 2, 2014
A New Year and New Classes
Hey everyone, long time no post right? Well I'm fixing our little communication problem right now. I hope you all had a great New Year, everyone was safe and didn't do anything illegal, right? Haha no worries, I won't tell anyone if you did, your secrete is safe with me ^-^ So, did any of you make any resolutions for the new year? I know I did! I have decided that this year, 2014, I will do whatever makes me happy. I figure that is a small step towards living a better life, just trying to find little things that make me happy and letting them happen, enjoying the moment, taking a few seconds to stop and say "yes, I am alive and this life can be good if I let it be." you know? Yeah, so I figured that would be a good resolution :) A lot of my friends are saying that they will lose weight, eat less, eat right, smile more, save money, work harder, get straight A's, join a gym, find a boyfriend, or other things like that. I figure just doing what makes me happy will result in these things. I think it's a good resolution and I'm going to try and stick to it! I am determined haha
Anyway, So I am all registered for my classes, and honestly, I decided to take the easiest math class I could find, along with two history classes and a religions class. This semester is shaping out to be a ton of fun, I'm a full time student and the only day that will suck is Monday because I'll be at school for 12 hours! Ew! But I'll figure something out haha, no point in wasting gas just to go home between classes when I'll only get to be there for an hour before I have to leave again. I can just nap in the truck or something XD ah the life of a broke college student, I'm so going to steal food from everyone haha I can't wait for this semester to start, I'm seriously excited. Okay, I have things to do so I'm gonna go.
Have a great day everyone! Be safe and make new friends!
^-^ Bye
Anyway, So I am all registered for my classes, and honestly, I decided to take the easiest math class I could find, along with two history classes and a religions class. This semester is shaping out to be a ton of fun, I'm a full time student and the only day that will suck is Monday because I'll be at school for 12 hours! Ew! But I'll figure something out haha, no point in wasting gas just to go home between classes when I'll only get to be there for an hour before I have to leave again. I can just nap in the truck or something XD ah the life of a broke college student, I'm so going to steal food from everyone haha I can't wait for this semester to start, I'm seriously excited. Okay, I have things to do so I'm gonna go.
Have a great day everyone! Be safe and make new friends!
^-^ Bye
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