Paint

Hello everyone! I just wanted to drop in and say hi and tell you all how much I love to paint. I've been on a painting spree and I have no idea why, but it's a lot of fun and it has been making me super happy ^-^
I'm a very artistic person in case any of you hadn't already heard, I love to paint and draw and color and craft and all that fun stuff, so the fact that I have been really into painting isn't big news, it's just that I haven't really wanted to do much else, just paint. Non stop. All day. I love it ^-^ so yeah, I just felt like sharing ^-^ have a great rest of the week, since there is only one day left haha and have a great weekend :D

Guys Just Don't Get It.

Okay so since I still don't have ajob I enrolled in the local community college. It isn't really something that I am looking forward to, but it is really better than nothing, right? Maybe they'll be able to help me get a job, I mean, that would really be great!

Everyone in my family is hurting right now. My moms frozen shoulder is acting up again, she can't lift her arm up and she can't do the dishes (our dish washer is broken and since the other two living in the house are also currently unavaliable for manuall labor I gett to do it) becauseher hands are so messed up.
My dad has a lot of muscular promblems in his left arm which has now become all but completely useless. He has constant pain in his entire left side and just tousching it seems to hurt him.
My baby brotheris getting ill, he is coughing and sneezing all over the place and he is spreading all his germs everywhere and it is digusting. My mom is about ready to banish him to his room.
I started my period today so I am super irritated by every little thing and I'm cramping and it hurts like a bitch! If you're a guy, don't you DARE say "oh, i understand" or "so?" or anything other than "Here, would you like this peppermint bark? can I get you a grande peppermint white chocolate mocha from Starbucks?" because you do oNOT understand what I am going through!! This is my time of the month and I will NOT be messed with! Do you understand !!?!!
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Whoa, I had a total moment there haha anyways..uhmm..I think I'm going to go grab my coat and slip on some uggs and head off for some starbucks...I'm having a craving lol . . . yeah..
lates!

Hotel? Public Wifi? Wow..

Hey everyone!
Yesterday was my boyfriends birthday (day before yesterday..the 22nd lol) and so he turned 18 and we went to the casino!! It was a lot of fun, other than the whole "Throw away your money!!" thing XD

Anyway haha so yesterday yesterday was Christmas for my dads side and we drew names and I got to meet my cousins girlfriend. Hw asked her to formal with candles and everything, it was really cute. She's this tiny little  thing and so shy and timid and she turns Bright red so easily, it makes me laught lol

I'm in a hotel room right now, it's really weird cause normally I don't use public wifi but I really wanted to lete you guys know that I'm in Sacremento right now for Christmas with my moms side and my entire family will be here and it is super exciting!!! :D

That's about t haha, I'll post more when I get back home!

Dinner Disaster

I do not have one culinary bone in my body, okay? I am, in fact, very good at burning food and if it isn't completely scorched, it is utterly disgusting and my mother, bless her heart, is trying to remedy that. She is trying to prepare me for living on my own, not just using a microwave to reheat leftover pizza or frozen dinners. I love her to death, and I am so glad that she cares enough to try and help me, but I have decided that I am just so far beyond help that not even my dear mother will be able to fix me.
She tried to have me make dinner tonight. It's a simple enough dish, there are seriously only like five ingrediants total. So it started off okay enough, mama had me open a can or corn and so I grabbed the can opener and started opening the can. Mama came back almost ten minets later and I was still twisting the can opener and the can was still sealed shut. Mama had to open it for me...
So we got the can open and I poured the contents into the bowl with the cornbread mix and an egg, started stirring and I had to go back and forth between stirring the bowl nad some beans that I had heating up on the stove. The beans ended up burnt and the mixture in the bowl was clumpy. My mother tryed helping me as little as possible because she wanted me to do it all on my own. So I tried to fix the beans and the mixture as best I could. I poured about a third of the mixture into a pan and then very poorly spread it evenly on the bottom. After emptying the beans over that I dumped a bunch of cheese on top and the the rest of the mixture. We threw it in the oven and set a timer for 50 minuets. Now I have been banished from the kitchen and my mom is irritated with my incompetence.
All of that took almost half an hour just because I am THAT lost in a kitchen. Needless to say this was very much a little dinner disaster.

Here I Am!!!

I'm still here! It's been so long haha but I'm still here, I haven't forgotten you guys, I promise.

Okay, so a lot has happened in the past while since I last posted haha not really, but I like to pretend like a lot really happened so that I feel like I actually have a life, you know?

First of all, I lost my phone, couldn't find it anywhere and I was so sad! I went two days without it before my dad took me to get a new one. I now have a Pantech Renue and so far it has been working well. I don't use the slide out buttons or anything that much, I really do prefer the touch screen but having the option is kind of nice.

I cleaned my room! It is finally organized and all clean and I am so excited ^-^ I'll post picture later, I'm so lazy right now haha

I have all of my Christmas shopping done!! I did the last of it todady and I am so glad I don't have to brave the crowds any more. I have three Christmas's, and it is super hectic trying to get everything done in time for them all. On Sunday I am going to my Aunts house for my dad's side Christmas, then Monday I am going to Sac for my moms side Christmas, we're lucky my sister will be able to join us for that one. Then we have our sibling name/immediate family gift exchange, always on Christmas morning. There is just so much to do haha I'm glad I got it all done in time.

ALso, my boyfriends birthday is this Saturday, I got him a birthday gift and card. He is turning 18 so he wants to go to an Indian casino and gamble away all of his money, and he wants to take me with him so I need to talk to my parents about that before I give him a definate answer. I'm not much of a gambler, I mean, I don't really like the idea of wasting money. I guess that might just be because I am a bit of a penny pincher though, huh? Anways, with any luck I'll be back in town a few days after Christmas, then I can spend New Year with my boyfriend and his family or friends or something. I love New Year, it is my second favorite holiday, right after Halloween ^-^

Uhmm...Oh!!!
I got to help my boyfriends little sister find a dress for her winter formal! She came over and went through my dresses and we found her one to match the tie her boyfriend has (a very expensive tie that really isn't all that nice to look at...) but she took a necklace as well and her mom is going to get her come purple heels to match. I'm so excited for her, I hope she has a lot of fun ^-^

My Mothers Birthday and Boyfriends Birthday Isssues

Today was a special day, my mother turned into a senior citizen today. he hates her birthday, which is probably where I get it from, so we try not to make too big of a deal out of it. Well, anyways, so I went out with a few of my girlfriends, spent the day looking around stores for cheap stuff. Found some really cute things, but nothing worth opening my wallet for. Let me tell you, I love shopping, but when I have to spend my own money, I am a penny pincher that would put Mr. Scrooge to shame. The most expensive thing I have ever bought with my own money was a sexy white T shirt that I don't even have anymore, and that shirt was like $15. Such a waste.
Afterwards, we three ended up at the mall, which really doesn't have anything cheap. Needless to say, I went home empty handed hahaha but I did have a lot of fun with the girls, talking about our nerdy boys and what we should get them for Christmas/birthdays. Speaking of which, my boyfriends birthday is comming up and I have no idea what to get him...I need serious ideas you guys. I mean, I don't want to hear "Dress up like a gift and let him unwrap you" (already heard it from the girls), I want really great ideas. I heard about this website, thinkgeek.com or something like that, I could probably go on there, but what are the chances of me getting something in time for his birthday which is less than two weeks away >.< I'm in trouble....

Totally Random

Hey you guys! XD I love that movie, The Goonies, such a great movie. Uhmm...not much to say. My dad came home, he spent the week in New York so I guess it's good to have him home again. Tomorrow he is going to give me Admin control on my laptop so that is exciting. Uhmm...my mothers birthday is on Friday, the same day that The Hobbit is released. On Saturday there is a Christmas party for the college group at church, they'll be going to The Hobbit afterwards and I want to go but then again I really love Magic Night. I'll have to think about it. Neither of my parents have said anything about me being kicked out which is odd, dad most likely told mom what happened and she most likely told him not to kick me out at least until after the holidays. Uhmm...my fingers are cold hahaha that's about it, not much going on. I want to bike to Demons (see last post) house some time this week, I need air for my bike tires. I have AWANA on Wednesday. I need to get my mom a birthday gift. I just ate pasta. I don't have a favorite color. The walls in my room are painted 'Cranberry Bog' and yes, I did paint them myself, over summer a few years ago, one of my friends came over and helped me. I think ribbons are nice. I want to change the picture I have on here because the vurrent one bothers me and I'm not sure why. Uhmm...that's all I can think to say at the moment so...bye!!

Friday!!!

This is my make up post for having not posted about yesterday when I should have...uh, which would be yesterday, but it's now tomorrow, which is today so...whatever, 12:07 AM on Sunday XD

Okay

Friday!! I woke up at 9 in the morning and scrambled to get ready to meet up with an old friend of mine at the mall. This friend is very into the whole demon thing, not sure how else to put it, and he has had a number of experiences which relate to ghosts or spirits or other worldly activity, so I guess from now on I will just refer to him as Demon. Sound good? Great.
Okay, so I had to meet Demon at the mall by 10AM, so I was super happy to arrive just 15 minuets after the appointed time because as you all are well aware, I run on my own time schedule. ANyway, so I got there, walk into the mall and I see this guy who looks just like one of my exs (now, I have quite a few ex boyfriends, but this one is not exactly a guy I want to see. Ever.) so I duck into the shoe place, walk to the back and text Demon telling him that I am aat the mall. Of course, he says that he is in the arcade, which is where the ex look alike is. So after a few minuets of BS about pretty shoes, I walk out and there is Demon with my ex look alike, talking and having fun. Upon closer inspection, I find out it really isn't my ex, but the whole time I was super awkward because he looks and acts SO much like this ex that it was kind of creepy. So he hung out with us until about 12 because he was meeting a friend. We didn't really do much, just kind of walked in and out of shops, got some candy, and walked. A lot.
After Demons friend left, we walked to Target which is right next to the mall. In the middle of shopping for my sister, Demon asks if we can head back to his place so he can take care of a few chores that he needs to get done before his mom gets home. I agree, not like I really have much to do. So he calls his mom, tells her he and I will be there in an hour to do the chores, I pay for my things, and we start walking to Johnny Quick where I give him 5 bucks to buy some cigs (I quit, but he really needed a smoke, or five, because he was so irritable that I was about to punch him and the fact that he was shaking was starting to bother me) then we start walking to his house. And walking. And walking for an hour to his house. After we get there, he turns on Papa Roach and we start getting all the Christmas boxes out of his garage. Now, I know that some people are really into Christmas, but this was just ridiculous. There were like 7 or 8 big boxes of just Christmas stuff, and they were heavy. After we finally finished moving the boxes, we spent a few minuets trying to hook up his garage door opener. Didn't take too long, so we were quickly on our way back to the mall. Another hour of walking.
This is where things get very normal between him and I. On the way back, he had to stop and lean against a pole, grabbing at his side and acting like he was all fine, even though he looked like he was in pain. After we get to the mall, we sit on a bench and I force him to tell me what is wrong with him. He explains that some people believe that the full moon is like a portal, and every full moon, there is this Thing that goes straight to his house and whenever he brings a loved one over, It follows his loved one back to their house and hurts them until they leave him. The full moon was a few days ago and I was the first loved one he had brought over to his house since then and that he was afraid this Thing would make me leave him too. I told his that it couldn't be any worse than what I have already delt with in my life, but the look he gave me made me stop for a moment and pause.
Well, after that, we spent another hour or so together until we hopped into my car and I drove him home (didn't want to make him walk again) and then I went back to my place. We spent about seven hours together.
Did I ever happen to mention that neither my boyfriend nor my bestie like Demon? I can't help that I have a bit of a soft spot for him though, I mean..we went through a lot together, and I think of him as a girl friend, not a guy friend. I am so comfortable around him, like, I could take him into Victoria's Secret (now my poor boyfriend is going to think I'm showing him my bras, great) and it wouldn't be awkward or anything. I complained to him about guys when I was single and when I was with my ex, I bitched to Demon about him because Demon didn't really seem to mind and he actually listened. We were going to give dating a try, but he got with another girl and so I got with another guy. Guy broke up with me, I got with another guy and we never really seemed to be single at the same time. Looking back on it, I'm glad we never dated, it would have ruined the friendship that we have now and I wouldn't be with my boyfriend. I mean, Demon is a great guy and he really is sweet to me, but I can kind of understand why most guys seem to really hate him.
Oh well, I guess we're going to just live and learn.
My Friday was great, I had a lot of fun. I found out I could bike to Demons house if I need to rant to him or something. I love talking to my bestie and my boyfriend, but sometimes I need to talk to someone who isn't them..I hope they can understand that. I know Demon isn't their first choice for me to be around, but he is one of the closest people to me, absolutly in my top 5 closest people. They'll have to learn to respect and understand that. I've known him since 8th grade, and he accepted me when I hated everybody. In 8th grade, it was seriously just me and my bestie at church (we had just barely become friends over a ruined relationship) and then Demon and I at school. That was it. I had just switched schools, and I was this little emo punnk goth kid who hated everything. How they stuck by me, I have no clue, but I'm glad they did.

Yeah, got a little off topic at the end, but you all get the point haha
Anyway, I have church in the morning. Night!

Vons

Hey everyone, so I am really excited about my mac n cheese hahaha the water is boiled and the pasta is in! Oh my god, why am I so excited about mac n cheese? I don't know haha but I am!!

Anyways, so today has been very..educational. Is that the word I am looking for? Probably not, hold on, it'll come to me.....okay maybe not haha
Well, my mama found this bell yesterday and since then I have been wearing it around me neck like a cat. Not really cure why, but I like the sound it makes when I move. Anyway, I had to make a quick run to Vons so I could get the milk for my mac n cheese, right? So I drove to Vons, parked (better than normal) and walked into the store. I got a few looks from the guy putting away the shopping carts, but I ignored it and went straight for the milk. On my way there, there was this really old guy staring at me and it made me super uncomfortable, I seriously felt like he was going to jummp me or something! So I kinda walked quickly past him, and then I got my milk and went to the Express Lane for check out. It was really crowded. Everyone seemed to be in a bad mood and then there was me, standing there with my gallon of milk, smiling and playing with my little bell. I felt so out of place, you guys, it was insane. Anywho, so I bought my milk and left. It started to rain! Just a little bit, but hey, rain is rain and I love it haha
Yeah, so that was my pointless story, just giving you all a little peak into my day to day life. It's really boring, huh? Yeah, I know, sadface..
^-^ I have a bell ^-^
Mac N Cheese is ready! Bye!!!

Holidays Tea! Sleepy Spaz Random Post XD

Hey you guys.. I'm feeling sad right now. A year ago, I lost a very dear friend. I posted about him a while ago, I just feel like it wasn't right that he should be taken away so soon. I don't know, maybe I have just lost too many people. The holidays always make me sad, you know? It's just, the two people that I love the most love Christmas and this time of year so much and then here I am just here all like "Why does it have to be so freakin cold, dude?" you know? I never really like Christmas, it was just never my cup of tea.

( ^ That was saved in a draft last night because it was like 5 in the morning and I was falling asleep XD Everything below this is from today and no, I am no longer sad hahaha )

Speaking of tea, I have been in just a tea mood that I can hardly keep the water boiled long enough to satisfy my cravings. I heard about a mint tea from a very old friend of mine, she and I were fast friends in kindergarten, that will tell you just how long our friendship has lasted, and she said that this mint tea was her absolute favorite. I am really excited to try it, the problem is I have to buy it and that costs money so it could be a while hahah

I am so tired, I was up until almost five this morning vidchatting with one of my guy friends. He isn't really a guy that my boyfriend approves of, but he is a dear friend of mine so my boyfriend has to deal with it. Anyway, so we were talking and I realized just how much we both have changed over the 5 or 6 six years that we have been friends. He isn't nearly as spazzy and although I wouldn't say he is the most mature guy I know, he has matured a lot over the years. He told me that I am a lot more open with people now, not so huddled up in a corner with a knife saying "Get away from me you freak alien things!" (which is more of my interpretation of what he said and not a direct quote). It really does amazing me how much a person can change in so little time. Really, quite amazing.

Anyway, other than all of that..yes I am still without a job, I applied for a substitute preschool aid in my school district, still waiting to hear back from that. I am waiting on  few places to call me back still, and...yeah. I am not yet enrolled in any kind of schooling at the moment. Uhmm...in all of that, I really haven't changed. I guess I will see you guys, well, not see you, but you'll be reading more later haha have a great day everyone!

It's Finally Happened

Well you guys, it has finally happened. Yes, just a few days ago my father looked at me and told me that I have to get a job or move out. Honestly, I have been expecting this and thought he would have done it a bit sooner, but I suppose that now is as good a time as any. He yelled quite a bit and then told me get out of his sight so that he could cool down. About ten minues later he knocked on my door and told me to go to my boyfriends house so that mom wouldn't have to cook two dinners. I don't have a problem with skipping dinner, I've been known to do it before, but I guess he just wanted me gone for a bit. So I went to my boyfriends house, his family loves me. I have to talk to his parents about maybe me living there until summer, once the school year ends, I have plans to move in with one of my friends mom. I don't really want to intrude on her sooner than I have to, so I'm woorking on not getting kicked out too soon and really doing overtime trying to get a job. I have to talk to my parents and see if they will pay for my college if I do move out, but seeing as I have been threatened already, I'm not so sure it will happen. My dad seems dead set against any online schooling for me, which really sucks because the school I am looking at is either online or move to San Fran. We don't have the money to ship me off to San Fran right now, and since they don't provide housing, it would cost twice as much for me to go there. Let's just say that I am very glad my father is out of state right now, otherwise I swear I just might go insane. I know, I know, I am a total Daddy's Girl, but that doesn't mean that my father doesn't irritate me past my limits every day. He is difficult to get along with because everything is "My way or get the hell out of my house" and I am "My way or leave me the hell alone". Yeah, needless to say we butt heads A LOT. He says I sit in my room and do nothing, he says that because I stay in my room all day and come out only for food and to use the bathroom, not like he doesn't lock himself in his little office on the opposite side of the house. For all I know he could have been fired and and he locks himself in the office so none of us know he was fired! Not like we really see him working -.- just saying..Anyway..all I am trying to say is that he has no idea what I am doing in my room, so he shouldn't be saying that I'm not trying to get a job or that I sleep until 1 in the afternoon because I am trying to get a job and I get up every day at 9 in the morning and I don't come out until 1 beccause that is when I eat lunch. I stay in my room so I don't disturb him because he is suppose to be working from 6 to 3 every day.
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Anyway, yeah, so I am on the verge of being kicked out of the house and I am going to need a placce to crash. I have been going through my things, trying to figure out what I am going to donate and what I have to keep and absolutly could not part with. It's difficult since I have so many memories with all of my things. Okay, just wanted to update you guys, try and keep you informed..Uhmmm what else..OH! We put up the Christmas lights, and the tree, I have candy canes and it is finally December. Thank god. I just want this year to be over XD Okay, well.....bye!!!