I had a good day today..for the most part.
I got to spend a lot of quality time with my boyfriend. he took me to a park and pushed me on the swings. We watched an episode of Merlin. Hung out in the kitchen. Talked, laughed, hugged, kissed and just had an over all good day.
Then my mother took me home..
She and I got into a very big fight and now neither of us are speaking to each other. I ranted about it to a friend saying basically that I am sick of being targeted by my parents for not living up to their expecations. They like to pick on me as the dumb one in the family and I know that I am a very inelligant kid. It bothers me that they are being so strict about everything but they tell me to be my own person. It is like they wish I were someone else, why can't they be happy with who I am?
I just don't understand.
Anyways, so I have been super obsessed with (now don't judge me..) Bingo on Facebook, I think I have three or four different games to play on after I run out of chips for the day! Yeah..it is just that bad.
Other than that, the job hunt has been going okay, I got emails in saying my apps are being considered, so it really is just waiting on that call..so impatient haha part of me wishes they would call me now. I really need to get a job, I would love to be able to move out of my parents place. I think almost every kid thinks that, though. Right? Right.
"it's 5 o'cloock in the morning conversation got boring..."
such a good song. No seriously, it is 5am so I am heading off to bed. Good night/morning bloogger peoples, this little Miss is headed to Dream World.
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Monday, July 9, 2012
Job Search and Shout Outs
So since I have been out of high school, I have been on the hunt for jobs. The places I would like to work won't hire me until I am 21. Oh, you know, the really cool places where a discount would be amazing..the gun shop, the shooting range..places like that. So I have been applying elsewhere, trying for jobs such as Dicks Sporting Goods and PetSmart and Styles. Hopefully these places hire me, a lot of them say that previous experience is recomended, but I have none of that because to have experience you need a job and to have a job you need experience which you get by obtaining a job which you need experience in order to land and it is just a never ending cycle of terror. I mean, really, I'll take any job I can get as long as I don't have to deal with other peoples food..I just..I cannot deal with other peoples food. I cannot. I can handle screaming customers who are angry because they can't find what they need, but I just might vomit if I have to deal with someone elses picked at half eaten leftovers..
Anyways, so the job search is going about as well as a red dress at a black and white ball, that is to say "I feel really out of place applying for all of these places because most of them I doubt would hire me because I don't think that I fit into their 'CompanyImage' like the other employees cause I have applied to both Hot Topic and Hollister and Ambercrombie and heck! I am even considering applying to Spencers even though I just might die if I had to work there!!!". Make sense?
Probably not..
Do I care?
Not really.
Should I?
Eh, maybe.
Also, today is a very good friend of my's birthday and I would just like to do a quick shout out to her. Happy birthday girly, you kniw who you are. And i forgot to do a shout out on Saturday to my guy friend who turned 18 finally, happy birthday dude, and don't you dare give into that Hello Kitty case (sorry for the inside joke)!
Okay, so I do believe that I am done for the night/morning. Good night/morning blogger world citizens, I shall return at a leter date..er..time haha. Who knows, I just might post again today XD
Anyways, so the job search is going about as well as a red dress at a black and white ball, that is to say "I feel really out of place applying for all of these places because most of them I doubt would hire me because I don't think that I fit into their 'CompanyImage' like the other employees cause I have applied to both Hot Topic and Hollister and Ambercrombie and heck! I am even considering applying to Spencers even though I just might die if I had to work there!!!". Make sense?
Probably not..
Do I care?
Not really.
Should I?
Eh, maybe.
Also, today is a very good friend of my's birthday and I would just like to do a quick shout out to her. Happy birthday girly, you kniw who you are. And i forgot to do a shout out on Saturday to my guy friend who turned 18 finally, happy birthday dude, and don't you dare give into that Hello Kitty case (sorry for the inside joke)!
Okay, so I do believe that I am done for the night/morning. Good night/morning blogger world citizens, I shall return at a leter date..er..time haha. Who knows, I just might post again today XD
Saturday, July 7, 2012
How I Know My Boyfriend Loves Me
I get really bad hallucinations sometimes, and they have been know to keep me up late at night just because they are so bad or so frightening. Well, tonight they have been horrible, and I won't go into detail of what I have been seeing. It is just not good, and several times I have almost screamed or cried. He didn't sleep all last night and then he stayed up tonight with me and did his best to keep me sane. He played a few of our favorite songs such as Perfect by Lights and All About Us by He Is We. then for hours he helped me translate the complicated language of doctors as I read to him what I found on the internet about hallucinations. He has been keeping me sane since 11pm and it is now 5:14am. I swear, I really do believe that I have the best boyfriend in the world. <3
That's all for now.
That's all for now.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
The 4th of July
So today was the 4th of July. Actually..that was yesterday, since it is currently 1am on the 5th.....but that is just a technicallity XD
I had a great 4th of July, I didn't get out of bed until noon and then I had an amazing shower and I had the most relaxing 4 hour Get-Ready-For-A-Party time and it was so relaxing. I had blue frayed shorts and a black T-shirt with a red bow in my hair! I loved my bow!!!!! Anyways, so I got to myboyfriends house and then from there the three of us (me him and his best friend) went to the party. It was okay, I always feel weird going to parties where I don't know anyone.
There weren't too many people close to my age, there were about 10 of us "kids" then a number of adults and a dog, then littler kids and it was all a very family-friendly event.
We played a card game called Maow (or however you spell it) and after watching one round I decided I didn't like it. But I played a round or two anyways..I shouldn't have. It was a lot of unspoken rules and stuff and I got really lost and confused and wasn't sure what to do.
ever noticce how distracting facebook can be? I just logged on real quick because a friend sent me a message on it and I wanted to see what she said..it's now 3:09am XD
sorry for the side note haha so I hope you all had a great 4th of July, hope you were all safe! I know we had fun and although we did a few really stupid things and some things that were probably more than a little idiotic, I enjoyed the party and the fireworks show. Tune in again! Maybe next ime I won't get so distracted hahaha.......not likely..
I had a great 4th of July, I didn't get out of bed until noon and then I had an amazing shower and I had the most relaxing 4 hour Get-Ready-For-A-Party time and it was so relaxing. I had blue frayed shorts and a black T-shirt with a red bow in my hair! I loved my bow!!!!! Anyways, so I got to myboyfriends house and then from there the three of us (me him and his best friend) went to the party. It was okay, I always feel weird going to parties where I don't know anyone.
There weren't too many people close to my age, there were about 10 of us "kids" then a number of adults and a dog, then littler kids and it was all a very family-friendly event.
We played a card game called Maow (or however you spell it) and after watching one round I decided I didn't like it. But I played a round or two anyways..I shouldn't have. It was a lot of unspoken rules and stuff and I got really lost and confused and wasn't sure what to do.
ever noticce how distracting facebook can be? I just logged on real quick because a friend sent me a message on it and I wanted to see what she said..it's now 3:09am XD
sorry for the side note haha so I hope you all had a great 4th of July, hope you were all safe! I know we had fun and although we did a few really stupid things and some things that were probably more than a little idiotic, I enjoyed the party and the fireworks show. Tune in again! Maybe next ime I won't get so distracted hahaha.......not likely..
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Fireworks and the Old Times
So....it is basically Independance Day. 11:55pm on the 3rd of July, and I just found out that my family has no fireworks. Great. This means another last minuet rush to the nearest stand to buy whatever they have left and hope they have some really good ones left otherwise it'll be lame.
Ready for some good news?
I think I might be able to spend the 4th with my boyfriend ^-^ okay, that is good news to me.
Bad News?
My bestie isn't here and I miss her!!!!!!! :(
Okay, so my brother and I are left home alone every now and then and it used to be really fun because we would build a giant fort in the living room, or have our Wrestling Tournement there, but now that we are older we sleep in until 1pm and them rush to get the list of chores done before the folks get home. I am really missing the good days when we knew how to have fun. His idea of fun is reading manga for hours on end and then watching anime. I sometimes wish I were able to sit down for long periods of time and just stare at a computer screen, but I can't. I get really restless and antsy. I have to move. It's funny because I like movies, but I have to force myself to be still and try to focus on it, so I always look angry when I watch them. My boyfriend says I look irritated, he says I get that same irritated look on my face when we are in a car, too. Irritated and quiet haha I only get like that because when I am in a car, I don't really feel safe..it's a giant box on wheels moving at speeds which humans otherwise shouldn't be moving at, and with my luck, something bad will happen. I'm not a big fan of being a passanger in a car. I'll drive, but otherwise..no. Just no.
Happy 4th of July!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be safe, all of you, and don't do anything too stupid. Don't make the pigs angry and have a blast (haha blast, get it? fireworks are like...they go boom and.....ok..joke killed..) ^-^
Ready for some good news?
I think I might be able to spend the 4th with my boyfriend ^-^ okay, that is good news to me.
Bad News?
My bestie isn't here and I miss her!!!!!!! :(
Okay, so my brother and I are left home alone every now and then and it used to be really fun because we would build a giant fort in the living room, or have our Wrestling Tournement there, but now that we are older we sleep in until 1pm and them rush to get the list of chores done before the folks get home. I am really missing the good days when we knew how to have fun. His idea of fun is reading manga for hours on end and then watching anime. I sometimes wish I were able to sit down for long periods of time and just stare at a computer screen, but I can't. I get really restless and antsy. I have to move. It's funny because I like movies, but I have to force myself to be still and try to focus on it, so I always look angry when I watch them. My boyfriend says I look irritated, he says I get that same irritated look on my face when we are in a car, too. Irritated and quiet haha I only get like that because when I am in a car, I don't really feel safe..it's a giant box on wheels moving at speeds which humans otherwise shouldn't be moving at, and with my luck, something bad will happen. I'm not a big fan of being a passanger in a car. I'll drive, but otherwise..no. Just no.
Happy 4th of July!!!!!!!!!!!!! Be safe, all of you, and don't do anything too stupid. Don't make the pigs angry and have a blast (haha blast, get it? fireworks are like...they go boom and.....ok..joke killed..) ^-^
Monday, July 2, 2012
A Little More About Me =D
Hey!! Hello to all off you blogger peoples out there reading this! Nice to ..uh.....meet you? I guess that is the right wording, or should I say.....oh forget it haha welcome to another post by me, Riku =D
So, I figure unless you know me personally, you know basically nothing about me! And that would really suck because I think that I am an amazing person ^-^
I am 18 years old, still living with my parents (they don't make me pay rent or anything and I get along with them really well so it all works out), and granduated from high school last month. My room is a good size, not super large or anything, but I like it. I painted the walls a cranberry bog color which my parents hate. I have a TON of antiques and stuff in my rooom, my sisters always joke that it is an antique shop. My room is always an organized chaos, which bugs me sometimes but I never seem to be able to have enough time to clean it.
My favorite animal is a snake, I love all snakes, they are so beautiful! I like all animals, don't get me wrong, it's just that I like snakes the most ^-^
I have been a vegitarian for about 2 years and 7ish months, no, I don't miss meat haha (people ask me that a lot so I'm clearifying [SPELLCHECK!!!] it now) My sister and I went veggie at the same time. We might go vegan for a little while, but if we do, it will be temporary because we both live off of cheese and ice cream and chocolate XD
I am a very copetative person, I like to win. The only problem is that I am also super lazy. My bestie often tells me that I am the most competative lazy person she has ever met.
I am quite easily distracted, but I mutitask all the time.
I don't have a favorite color, or number, or letter, or day or month.
I love Holloween and New Years Eve, but I really don't care for Christmas or Thanksgiving. My friends think I'm crazy because I don't like to ge gifts or to have people spend money on me. I like to earn things, not have things given to me. Still, I am kind of spoiled..but at least I admit to it!
Uhmmm.......I can't think of anything else to say to you peoples of the blogging world, so if you have any other questions just ask. I love questions, that is another thing about me! I love to ask and answer questions! I'll check up with you all later and post again soon!! I think..hahaha neer know what tomorrow holds, so take every day for what it is.
Later!!! ^-^
So, I figure unless you know me personally, you know basically nothing about me! And that would really suck because I think that I am an amazing person ^-^
I am 18 years old, still living with my parents (they don't make me pay rent or anything and I get along with them really well so it all works out), and granduated from high school last month. My room is a good size, not super large or anything, but I like it. I painted the walls a cranberry bog color which my parents hate. I have a TON of antiques and stuff in my rooom, my sisters always joke that it is an antique shop. My room is always an organized chaos, which bugs me sometimes but I never seem to be able to have enough time to clean it.
My favorite animal is a snake, I love all snakes, they are so beautiful! I like all animals, don't get me wrong, it's just that I like snakes the most ^-^
I have been a vegitarian for about 2 years and 7ish months, no, I don't miss meat haha (people ask me that a lot so I'm clearifying [SPELLCHECK!!!] it now) My sister and I went veggie at the same time. We might go vegan for a little while, but if we do, it will be temporary because we both live off of cheese and ice cream and chocolate XD
I am a very copetative person, I like to win. The only problem is that I am also super lazy. My bestie often tells me that I am the most competative lazy person she has ever met.
I am quite easily distracted, but I mutitask all the time.
I don't have a favorite color, or number, or letter, or day or month.
I love Holloween and New Years Eve, but I really don't care for Christmas or Thanksgiving. My friends think I'm crazy because I don't like to ge gifts or to have people spend money on me. I like to earn things, not have things given to me. Still, I am kind of spoiled..but at least I admit to it!
Uhmmm.......I can't think of anything else to say to you peoples of the blogging world, so if you have any other questions just ask. I love questions, that is another thing about me! I love to ask and answer questions! I'll check up with you all later and post again soon!! I think..hahaha neer know what tomorrow holds, so take every day for what it is.
Later!!! ^-^
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Good Day, Bad Day
Today started off as a good day. Keep in mind my wording here. Started. I got up at 7:40 for a shower and then it was off to church at 8:30. The service was great, I really enjoy church, it always makes me happy. I'm not overly church-y or anything, but the enviornment at my church is just amazing and I grew up there so I guess that makes sense. I feel at home there, safe, you know? Besides, I got to see my best friend (who live in another city) and my boyfriend.
It just so happens that my best friend is going back to her home city today, so I went to her house for a little BestieBondingTime after church. During this time, my family went out to lunch, which is normal. Afterwards, my mother was dropped off at the house while the boys went to The Range! I was so upset!!
Perhaps I should have told you first that my dad and I are shooting addicts. We go to The Range (which really is the name of the shooting range we go to) every month or so for bonding time. My younger brother (the only brother at the house) isn't into shooting. He really doesn't even like it. So the fact that he went to The Range and didn't tell me makes me angry, the fact that my dad took my brother and not me just pushes me over the egde because me brother has no interest in shooting.
Anyways, that was the bad part of my day. Other than the fact that my boyfriend was really upset and I wish he weren't. I don't like it when he is upset, I always just want to fix it but I never know how to...sadface = (
I got BestieBondingTime!!!! BestieBondingTime is where me and my bestie get alone time and we share everything that has been going on and sometimes it is very serious, other times is it very sad, and other times it is super happy ^-^ this time it was super happy mixed in with seriousness.
OHMEGAWWD!!!!!!! I hate Justin Beiber, I can't even ssay sorry about it, but his new song, Boyfriend, makes me want to dance. EWW!!!! I'm dancing around my room to a JB song XD oh goodness I have no life haha
"I'd like to be everything you want, hey girl let me talk to you."
"No!! I thought you were gay!! Get away!!"
"If I was your man-"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA You mean 'if i was a man' XD"
that's what I think in my head as he sings that song haha
Well, I guess that is pretty much all I can say, I feel weird posting in the middle of the...er..well...it's not really middle of anything, it's like 7ish. Mid-evening? haha I am so going to start calling this awkward middle of the evening time Mid-Evening.
Good Mid-Evening, everyone, I think I will reorganize my room now, it could really use some reorganizing. And then tonight I'm going to plug in the strobe light and dance around my reorganized room to crazy techno music! It's gonna be a blast!! Be jealous, blogging world, be very jealous.
It just so happens that my best friend is going back to her home city today, so I went to her house for a little BestieBondingTime after church. During this time, my family went out to lunch, which is normal. Afterwards, my mother was dropped off at the house while the boys went to The Range! I was so upset!!
Perhaps I should have told you first that my dad and I are shooting addicts. We go to The Range (which really is the name of the shooting range we go to) every month or so for bonding time. My younger brother (the only brother at the house) isn't into shooting. He really doesn't even like it. So the fact that he went to The Range and didn't tell me makes me angry, the fact that my dad took my brother and not me just pushes me over the egde because me brother has no interest in shooting.
Anyways, that was the bad part of my day. Other than the fact that my boyfriend was really upset and I wish he weren't. I don't like it when he is upset, I always just want to fix it but I never know how to...sadface = (
I got BestieBondingTime!!!! BestieBondingTime is where me and my bestie get alone time and we share everything that has been going on and sometimes it is very serious, other times is it very sad, and other times it is super happy ^-^ this time it was super happy mixed in with seriousness.
OHMEGAWWD!!!!!!! I hate Justin Beiber, I can't even ssay sorry about it, but his new song, Boyfriend, makes me want to dance. EWW!!!! I'm dancing around my room to a JB song XD oh goodness I have no life haha
"I'd like to be everything you want, hey girl let me talk to you."
"No!! I thought you were gay!! Get away!!"
"If I was your man-"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA You mean 'if i was a man' XD"
that's what I think in my head as he sings that song haha
Well, I guess that is pretty much all I can say, I feel weird posting in the middle of the...er..well...it's not really middle of anything, it's like 7ish. Mid-evening? haha I am so going to start calling this awkward middle of the evening time Mid-Evening.
Good Mid-Evening, everyone, I think I will reorganize my room now, it could really use some reorganizing. And then tonight I'm going to plug in the strobe light and dance around my reorganized room to crazy techno music! It's gonna be a blast!! Be jealous, blogging world, be very jealous.
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