Monday, December 16, 2013

Photo Final and Christmas Terror

Hey guys so yeah, here is the late post that I promised last week haha
so my Photo class ended with me getting a C :/ sucks because I got a B on my final and I guess I had a lower grade than was posted or something so........whatever, the class is over and done, I don't care anymore I'm just happy my first semester is done with. However, I'm also really sad because I won't be able to see all of my new college friends for a whole month D: major sadface, right? It's really depressing, I know I'm sad about this. And plus now that I'm working I'll have like zero time to do anything, especially since I have a boyfriend who always wants to take me out (not that I'm complaining haha) it's just nice to think that I actually am starting to get my life together. It's kind of a nice feeling.
Now let's see how long it lasts XD
I just say that because it seems that every time my life feels like it is coming together, something happens to screw it all up again. That's just the way my life goes, every single time :( but whatever, I've learned to live with it.

So, in other news, the Christmas decorating is going alright. We put up the lights, though there are two large sections where the lights are out so it looks tacky and poorly done. I also put up the tree and decorated it with the new boyfriends help ^-^ that was fun, though he ditched me for work about half way through decorating. Loser lol
We agreed that trees shouldn't be decorated with those ornaments, there should be small gifts and such on the tree instead like there used to be in the olden days. And candy ^-^ lots of candy and happiness on the tree, not trash and paper and awkward looks glass spheres. I guess that's just my own little thoughts. Whatever though, to each their own I guess. How do you guys celebrate the holidays? I'd be perfectly fine going without Christmas, I don't like the whole gifts idea. I don't really care for surprises though. The thought of holding a package that could be housing just about ANYTHING terrifies me. I mean, yeah I know, most people won't be placing a jar filled with black widows under the tree for me to open, but then again, one can never be too sure. I mean, piss off the wrong person and a jar full of eight legged freaks could be waiting for you.
Just some food for thought haha
Have a good week and visit the blog again sometime.
Riku signing off ^-^

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Basics of Photography? No Thank You!

Hey everyone, I know this isn't my normal blogging day, but I just had to rant this out to someone so it doesn't clutter up my normal Thursday post. I have come to the conclusion that I HATE finals week. Yeah, it's just one week of testing to make sure we passed our classes and ensuring that we paid a little attention, but still. I hate it. And I have it really easy.
I can't imagine how hard this will be next semester when I have four hard classes, I mean, my classes this semester have been super chill. For our English final all I had to do was show up for the final day, hand in my essay and kick it with the rest of the class. That's it. Simple. For my Illustrator final all I did was go in, put my projects onto the main computer, go over what we did in class, get my grade and leave. I think I was in there for three minuets max. Then I went outside and smoked a little, kicking it with my buddies.

My Basics of Photography class? Yeah well that's what I'm stressing over. The teacher gave us a five page front and back study guide that we have to complete. Then we go in on Thursday for our final which is a 200 question test. I have been working on this study guide for days now and I still haven't completed it. I've come to the conclusion that I am going to fail this final because most of the study guide is about things we went over in class, not things that are in the book or in my notes (which I didn't really take, stupid on my part). I have a B in that class right now, barely clinging to that B, so this test will make or break my grade. I would seriously rather not fail my Photo final but some of these questions are ridiculous! One actually asks for the exact type of Photoshop used for the computers in our class. Others are about the photographs we edited and some are just asking what something does
(for example: Filter > Distort > Lens Correction Tool > Vertical Perspective = <does what?> ).
This is ridiculous, seriously not needed stuff. I know there is only one answer to the questions like the one above, but still...it's kinda stupid that he's asking things like that when we didn't really go over any of that. We barely did anything with Photoshop, and when we did, he baby walked us through it. We never kept track of what anything was called or what did what. I just. Grr! I'm really irritated with this and I guess you can all tell. I just have so much "Basics of Photography" stuff crammed into my brain, I think I need a break or something before I over study (if it's not too late for me, that is).

Yeah, so I'll be posting again on Thursday night after my Photo Final. No, I won't be doing the entire post on that stupid test, hopefully, I'll have other things to talk about :) See you guys then!
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Thursday, December 5, 2013

A Job? And A Gay Guy?? What Have I Been Hiding???

Hey everyone!!! Guess what!!!! So I've been neglecting to tell you all some very BIG BIG BIG news. I start at my new job tomorrow.
WHAT!?! Riku why did you never tell us!!! Is that why you haven't been complaining about applications??? When did this happen!?!?!
Well, my ever faithful followers, I shall explain. . . very quickly because I have even bigger news to tell you all too! Basically, my friend got tired of listening to me bitch and complain about how I can't get a job and no one wants to hire me and finally he says he would see about getting me a job at this company **** (Yeah, you guys don't get to know where I work hahahhaha sorry..) where he works. That's basically it. Kind of a boring story, I know, but still, I has a job now and I has my parents off my back about it and I has an income which means I can save up, buy the truck, be able to afford the gas and insurance, then move out (hopefully) and get on with my life! :D Exciting stuff right?

Now here is where everything just flips upside down and does 8 twists. I'm dating a gay guy. And he is so great.

So that's it for my life hahaha . . . or should I tell you more? I guess I can't leave you hanging, huh? Okay, so he is 19 and he dates guys,  until he started dating me. I'm a girl. But he's not bi. He is just confused, and actually so am I. Our little situation is rather confusing and I honestly don't understand it and yes I know I just got out of a break up, my friends have all been over this with me a million times and I know I shouldn't be in a relationship right now, I need to figure out who I am, what the hell I am doing with my life and blah blah blah blah blah all that fun stuff. But this guy makes me feel happy and isn't that important? I know he likes guys, and I know I generally am into girls more than I am into guys, but for some odd reason I seem to make him happy too. We may not work out and for all I know he'll be back to dating guys again at the end of the month and that's okay. I just want to be around people who make me feel happy, people who I can let loose and just be me, real me, and do whatever the hell feels natural. Be that hitting him because he decided to bite me, or just smoking a cigarette because I felt like it. I can't do that around my friends, I couldn't do that with my ex, I just want to be free right now, even if it is free in a relationship with a gay guy. Yes, I know, it is confusing and I know it's weird, but I like him as his girly, happy go lucky, don't give any fucks, screw the world I'll do whatever the hell I want self. And he likes me for me, whoever I happen to be because hell if I know.

So yes, I start working part time tomorrow and my first official date with the new bf is this weekend sometime, he hasn't told me any details yet. Life is as exciting as ever, and with finals next week, I know things are about to get very complicated and messy. Stay tuned, and I'll post again in a week. Bye!!!
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Sunday, December 1, 2013

Thanksgiving Post!!! (better late than never)

Hey everyone! I know, I didn't make a post on Thursday, I'm so sorry!!! Things came up and I ended up collapsed on my bed fast asleep. I Was going to tell you all about my family traditions, but I guess that wouldn't be such a great idea since we're a pretty boring family. Sucks to be you though cause I'll tell you any ways ^-^

So I have two Thanksgivings. One with my dads side of the family, where we eat a ton of food and spend our time pretending to be normal. We generally all go to my Aunts house for a Thanksgiving lunch. I have three cousins that I know who are on my dads side. I don't really get along with any of them any more, so I spent Thanksgiving lunch the same way I have been for the past two years: sitting with my oldest sister and eating all of the vegetarian/gluten free food we can find. I used to be really close with the one female cousin, but we've grown apart over the years and I'm not sure how to help us grow back together :/ I guess it starts with just telling her about my life, right? That won't be too bad, will it??

Anyway, so then I also have a separate Thanksgiving with my mothers side of the family. I don't have any cousins on this side of the family, and my brother and I are convinced that her siblings are all way cooler than they let on. That's a story for another time though, another time and another place I guess haha

Yeah, so I have two Thanksgivings every year. It's nice if you just want to eat food all day and do nothing but eat. For me it was kinda depressing because I only got to see one sister and my family was a bit less than pleasant this year. All in all, the good outweighed the bad and my holiday was better than most.

Signing out now, hope you all had a great Thanksgiving and ate lots of food without getting too ill afterwards. Have a great day!

P.S.
I don't remember if I ever informed you all, but my boyfriend of two years and I broke up.... Did I not inform you all? Oh well, maybe I'll explain in a later post haha
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