Such An Odd Day

I woke up this morning and something felt off. Not something, everything. As I walked through the house for my morning shower, it was as though my body were moving without my brain saying where to go or what to do. This isn't anything new to me, seeing as mornings and I don't normally get along, but this time it was different. I attended church, but I still felt no more control over my actions than earlier this morning. It was the same through lunch.
My boyfriend came over after lunch and we painted and took a long walk around my neighborhood and surrounding area. I had control over my words, even control over my actions, but I still felt as though I were watching everything take place somewhere else, on a screen or in a book. I'm not trying to say that my  life is a story being written out or anything like that, I'm saying that this is what it felt like.
By the time I had taken my boyfriend home it was almost 10, and on the drive back to my place, I spotted a truck on the side of the road. There was a young man standing nearby and he gave me a look of lost confusion. I got home raced to my father and told him to help the guy out since he was so close to our house. He agreed and went with a few conditions.
1 I stay in the vehicle with the doors locked and windows rolled up
2 I talk only to him
3 First sign of trouble I hit the gas and get out of there as fast as possible and call 9-1-1
It wasn't until after we had finished and returned home that he told me he had taken his gun with him just in case.
Though I got to help someone today, I still feel as though my day was a bit off. Something wasn't quite right. I'm not sure how else to describe it.
I sent a text to my Bestie today, trying to describe my day. It came out like this:
"All day I have felt as though watching it all happen through a glass. Although I can see only from my point of view, I felt in a daze throughout each passing event."
That's the best way I have come up with to describe my day and how I have felt.

(No work out today, just the long walk with my boyfriend and that's it)

Lazy Cleaner Hahahaha (whoa off topic!!)

Wow I've been lazy with my "change" XD four days in and this is my first post? I seriously need to fix that hahaha okay well it is still technically the morning of day four, I got off  to sort of a late start today since I was up til three watching Legally Blonde the Musical on youtube hahaha it was really good, I enjoyed it a lot ^-^
I've spent my days cleaning, I don't understand why, but I have wanted to clean everything lately and it is beginning to bug me. Luck for me my room is a mess otherwise I think I would go crazy. I cleaned the bathroom twice, and I am itching to sweep up the kitchen. Gosh you guys it's like there is something wrong with me lol I've had cleaning moods, but they never really last for days, you know? I just thought that was weird and wanted to share.

Okay so I don't know if I ever told you guys but I applied for the local community college a while ago and they gave me a student email and an orientation to finish and all that good stuff, right? Well I'm not sure what happened but I got locked out of the orientation a week ago or so and I called the school like three times but got hung up on while the call was transferring or something. So I closed it down and tried again and again and again and it got really annoying and this has been going on ever since. Well the assessment test was suppose to take place yesterday, right? I called the school a few days ago to reserve my seat but they were all like "Have you completed the orientation?" I was all "No, I have a few questions about it actually-" and they'd cut me off all like "You need to complete the orientation before I can reserve your seat for assessment testing blah blah blah" and it got really annoying, it's like they don't want me to attend their school which isn't too surprising I mean, it's me, you know? I've never been that great of a student and I'm not sure I'm even that great of a person I mean I have friends and 'friends' and a Bestie and boyfriend but the more I think about it the less I think they actually know me, you know? I mean, it's no fault of theirs, I just have a habbit of keeping people at a distance. Less likely to get hurt that way, you can still get hurt, but it's more difficult though. I mean, my Bestie and my boyfriend both know my really well, but they know me in different ways. They know me the best, and I tell them more than I tell everyone else put togeter but  tell everyone different things and I guess I have told everything about myself but to different people in different quantities and if every single person I ever knew got together and shared every little thing about me it would probably be my entire life and they would all be confused because my entire life is ver y different than the bits and pieces that I have shared. It's like I live a contradiction and . . . whoa I got way off topic XD
Okay so it's like they don't want me to attend their school, I mean, I haven't done anything bad to them so I'm not sure why they wouldn't want me :( I guess I'll just call back and see if I can switch my beginning semester from Spring to Summer (if they even offer summer classes). Not sure how my dad will feel about that, he is already prepared to kick me out. I mean, I have a place I can go come summer but I finally got my room the way I want it. . . that's kind of a small thing I guess, but it's taken me forever and lots of hard work to get it situated so that I am happy with it!





10 sets or 10 sit ups
5 sets of ten push ups
as of 11:58 am

It's A New Year!

I love New Year, it is my favorite holiday, by far. I guess you could say that it is symbolic or something, but I have always seen it as the beginning of a new chapter, the start of something new and exciting like the turning of a page in a great book or something like that. It's when I would normally go through my phone and delete a bunch of people that I don't talk to anymore, it's the time when everyone is more willing to try something new. I gues that includes me as well ^-^
I'm not one who normally makes a NewYearsResolution but I decided to break from my tradition and not make a resolution but rather a change. I want to start working out (*GASP*) I know, MissLazy wants to work out? Do something acive?? Is she quite well???
Yes, I am quite well, I am also beginning to see just how unhealthy my life style is. Truth be told, I'm kind of getting tired of doing nothing and being lazy. I'm going to be trying to post on here everyday and at the bottom of each daily post I'll be completely honest with my activity levels, I'm talking about walks and biking and sit ups, push up jumping jacks, anything and everything that I did. No more being lazy for me. I'm trying to be healthy and active and do something with my life. I want to be different than the rest of my family, I want to be ative and run and be free. I want to be in control of my own future and not have anyone else be able to tell me what I can or cannot do.
I'm not trying to be part of a revolution or anything, I'm just trying to be my own person. I'm trying to change and be better than I was, a Riku2.0 I guess you could say. I've found a great song that I had never heard before today, I wanted to share it with you, before I go. Tell me what you think, it's called Angel With A Shotgun by The Cab ^-^

Paint

Hello everyone! I just wanted to drop in and say hi and tell you all how much I love to paint. I've been on a painting spree and I have no idea why, but it's a lot of fun and it has been making me super happy ^-^
I'm a very artistic person in case any of you hadn't already heard, I love to paint and draw and color and craft and all that fun stuff, so the fact that I have been really into painting isn't big news, it's just that I haven't really wanted to do much else, just paint. Non stop. All day. I love it ^-^ so yeah, I just felt like sharing ^-^ have a great rest of the week, since there is only one day left haha and have a great weekend :D

Guys Just Don't Get It.

Okay so since I still don't have ajob I enrolled in the local community college. It isn't really something that I am looking forward to, but it is really better than nothing, right? Maybe they'll be able to help me get a job, I mean, that would really be great!

Everyone in my family is hurting right now. My moms frozen shoulder is acting up again, she can't lift her arm up and she can't do the dishes (our dish washer is broken and since the other two living in the house are also currently unavaliable for manuall labor I gett to do it) becauseher hands are so messed up.
My dad has a lot of muscular promblems in his left arm which has now become all but completely useless. He has constant pain in his entire left side and just tousching it seems to hurt him.
My baby brotheris getting ill, he is coughing and sneezing all over the place and he is spreading all his germs everywhere and it is digusting. My mom is about ready to banish him to his room.
I started my period today so I am super irritated by every little thing and I'm cramping and it hurts like a bitch! If you're a guy, don't you DARE say "oh, i understand" or "so?" or anything other than "Here, would you like this peppermint bark? can I get you a grande peppermint white chocolate mocha from Starbucks?" because you do oNOT understand what I am going through!! This is my time of the month and I will NOT be messed with! Do you understand !!?!!
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Whoa, I had a total moment there haha anyways..uhmm..I think I'm going to go grab my coat and slip on some uggs and head off for some starbucks...I'm having a craving lol . . . yeah..
lates!

Hotel? Public Wifi? Wow..

Hey everyone!
Yesterday was my boyfriends birthday (day before yesterday..the 22nd lol) and so he turned 18 and we went to the casino!! It was a lot of fun, other than the whole "Throw away your money!!" thing XD

Anyway haha so yesterday yesterday was Christmas for my dads side and we drew names and I got to meet my cousins girlfriend. Hw asked her to formal with candles and everything, it was really cute. She's this tiny little  thing and so shy and timid and she turns Bright red so easily, it makes me laught lol

I'm in a hotel room right now, it's really weird cause normally I don't use public wifi but I really wanted to lete you guys know that I'm in Sacremento right now for Christmas with my moms side and my entire family will be here and it is super exciting!!! :D

That's about t haha, I'll post more when I get back home!

Dinner Disaster

I do not have one culinary bone in my body, okay? I am, in fact, very good at burning food and if it isn't completely scorched, it is utterly disgusting and my mother, bless her heart, is trying to remedy that. She is trying to prepare me for living on my own, not just using a microwave to reheat leftover pizza or frozen dinners. I love her to death, and I am so glad that she cares enough to try and help me, but I have decided that I am just so far beyond help that not even my dear mother will be able to fix me.
She tried to have me make dinner tonight. It's a simple enough dish, there are seriously only like five ingrediants total. So it started off okay enough, mama had me open a can or corn and so I grabbed the can opener and started opening the can. Mama came back almost ten minets later and I was still twisting the can opener and the can was still sealed shut. Mama had to open it for me...
So we got the can open and I poured the contents into the bowl with the cornbread mix and an egg, started stirring and I had to go back and forth between stirring the bowl nad some beans that I had heating up on the stove. The beans ended up burnt and the mixture in the bowl was clumpy. My mother tryed helping me as little as possible because she wanted me to do it all on my own. So I tried to fix the beans and the mixture as best I could. I poured about a third of the mixture into a pan and then very poorly spread it evenly on the bottom. After emptying the beans over that I dumped a bunch of cheese on top and the the rest of the mixture. We threw it in the oven and set a timer for 50 minuets. Now I have been banished from the kitchen and my mom is irritated with my incompetence.
All of that took almost half an hour just because I am THAT lost in a kitchen. Needless to say this was very much a little dinner disaster.