I'm Back!!!

Wow. My apologies, everybody, I haven't been on here in what feels like forever!!!

So SacAnime was a blast!!! We saw so many awesome cosplayers and also made a bunch of friends. I really hope I get to go to the WWinter one which is the Janurary, though I doubt I will be able to atend. Hey, a girls gotta dream though, right?

The one year anniversary with my boyfriend was amazing, it was cute and romantic and so different from any other one year celebrations I've heard of. We stayed at his place and had a nice little candle lit dinner of mac n cheese and apply cider and it was just so us and so intimate and I really enjoyed it.

I'm really buckling down to hunt for a job, not many places seem willing to hire me though. I'm going to apply to Target today and then I'll search online a little more. I still need to fill out some college aaplications as well, and I am just so frantic right now lol so much going on!!

Oh!!! I passed my teest, on the 31st I became a licenced driver in the state of California!! I had a great instructor and the test was fairly easy, and very basic. No sweat hahaha

I have my little brother going to every Magic Night with me now, every Saturday he and I drive to Magic Night and I make him play. He seems to be enjoying it so far, but I worry that he is shy, so hopefully this will help him to come out of his shell a little more. I don't know, now I'm just kind of rambling because truth be told he has only gone to one, and I've only really been to three so I guess I shouldn't really be talking, but I am so determined to make him go with me. It is a lot of fun to just chill and play Magic with all the guys, which I noticed there aren't really many girls who play Magic. It's kind of...weird o.O XD

Uhmm.....what else have I held out on you guys, let me think...
Oh!!! Speaking of Magic..
I finally got around to taking my red/white angel/vampire deck apart and making it into a red/white angel deck and a red/black vampire deck. My vampire deck i probably a better multiplayer deck, but it does well one on one, I kinda put it together with the mindset that the people sitting directly next to me aren't always the people I need to kill off first, so that was the thinking behind my vampire deck. My angel deck, however really seems to be bipolar with me, when it is nice to me, it is GREAT for me and I'll have all of the mana I need and like 8 angels out on the feild by my 9th turn. That right there is a very good deck. However, when it is being mean, it is a total Bitch and will give me maybe two mana and all high casting cost in my hand. It is so frustrating, but I love it so much!! Just grrr hahaha oh well, what's a girl to do. I don't need to put more mana in, and I really shouldn't take more mana out, so I guess all I have left to do it complain about it, which I will happily do on here ^-^

Lately I have been really into candles. Okay, so that's a lie, I have always loved candles, but I can only light unscented ones while my dad is in town. He has been gone all week, getting back today, so I have been lighting every scented candle I have and just being happy in a house that doesn't just smell like a house, it smells like amazing candles and Riku happiness :D but I have to air out the house before he get's home so he doesn't suffocate and die when he steps foot inside.

I really need to go to the dollar store, so I can pick up Ivy leaves for my costume. I'm seriously running out of time here, I need to get this thing pulled together! To be honest, I'm kind of nervous that maybe I won't be able to finish it on time. I will get through this!!

Okay, that was a speedy update on the going ons around here, I'll try to blog more so that my entries won't be quite so long haha tune in again and keep reading my blog!! It's like talking to myself only there are people reading in place of me talking and they just keep reading and reading and reading and reading and . . . you get the picture haha later!! <3

Oh Tuesday

So today I had a ton of yummy food while I relaxed and enjoyed the quiet of an empty house. I woke up at 7 this morning and decided to watch one of the greatest movies ever: John Tucker Must Die. It is a great movie, I really love it!
The I had Breakfast. It was a delicious Lunchables Thee Mini Cheese Pizza! Complete with blue airhead and fruit punch CapriSun! Oh yeah!!! Super cool, chick right here ^-^ it was the most delicious breakfast I have had in a long time.
I also watched Star Wars! Episode IV!!! It was so good, I forgot how much I love those movies, tomorrow I will watch Episode V! I'm excited lol
Hey! Guess what I grilled up for lunch? Grilled Cheese!! And oh yeah, it was amazing! I tred to upload a picure of my ooey gooey master piece, but Tech (that's my laptops name) is being moody again, so it didn't exactly work. But it was an amazing Grilled Cheese, if that makes it better haha

Okay, now for the scary part. Today, a 7 in the evening, the driver instructor arrived at my house. I got in the car and drove off. I drove aorund with him for two hours today. We didn't do anything too complicated, just sort of cruised around town for a couple of hours. I love driving at night, I'm not sure why, but I drive better at night than I do during the day. I am so comfortable driving around in the dark, weird, huh? He will be back tomorrow at the same time, he said that I am going to do a lot more parking and backing up tomorrow, so hopefully it goes well. Parking sucks, I hate it. Backing up, meh, it's okay I guess.

Okay, so I am super tired now, night everyone!

What A Weekend!!!

Hey everybody!!! My apologies for having skipped out on the writing/blogging whatever for so long, but I had an amazing weekend! Oh my goodness it was so much fun haha

Saturday:
I spent the day with my boyfriend! Shocker, right? I never spend any time with him what so ever (note the major sarcasm here..). But it was a lot of fun ^-^ we were actually suppose to have a double date type of thing with rock climbing and stuff, but everyone bailed on us! Can you believe that? So rude, right? Yeah, but I got to spend time with him anyway. Then we even went to Magic Night. Yes, I went to Magic Night, I decided to attend because it sounded like too much fun to pass up. Guess what else!!! I actually won! Now that is a surprise!!! I felt really weird being the only girl there, seven or so guys and me..it was a ton of fun though, and I have never been so proud of my deck before! ^-^ It's already Tuesday morning and I am still in shock that I actually won, sad hahaha call me whatever you'd like to, but playing Magic with those guys was fun. The thing is, playing with so many people takes a really long time and waiting for it to be your turn can get kind of boring :/

Sunday:
I went to church, as is normal, and I got to sit with my boyfriend ^-^ Then it was off to his place and messing around there until 8, when my father came to pick me up.

Monday:
I know, Monday isn't part of the weekend, but I am counting it because I can, so HA! If you have any issues, leave a comment or something..no one ever comments and it makes me feel sad :(
Back to Monday!! haha I got off topic, so I didn't really do much today...er..Monday XD I mean, I swept and cleaned up the house a little. Then my dad got off work and the two of us went for a drive..more like I drove the car and he drove me crazy. Typical parent. I went to dinner with my mother, had amazing soup at Panera Bread! I love that place <3 hmm...what else did I do? Not much, basically napped. Boring Monday.

Okay, so I know that all doesn't sound like much, but there was a lot going on as it was happening and my weekend just felt very crowded and scrambled haha Tomorrow..er.....Tuesday, I mean, I will have the house to myself, I'm really looking forward to it ^-^ and I already know I am going to have an amazing Grilled Cheese for lunch! Maybe I'll post a picture on here for you people to see! I'm really excited for it ^-^

Wow, So Much! Hahaha

Okay, so a lot happened, so I will be using a number/list type of format for todays post. If you don't like it, then go away cause no one likes you..okay nevermind on that, I might not know you so don't go away cause I would love to be your friend ^-^ I like people. . .sometimes haha anyway, let's get started!

1st
I went to the DMV today!!! So many people, and most of them looked rather unhappy (my mother included). I guess most of you peoples see the DMV as more of a chore than an adventure, right? Well, not me! I see it as an adventure! There are so many people there, I make up stories about them in my head. Nothing bad, just giving them a background, something simple, right? I like to figure people out, and I'm kind of a people watcher (creepy, right? Yeah, I know -.-) so going to the DMV is really fun for me. We waited for an hour and 40 minuets before we were called up to the window.
My new permit didn't cost anything, and the new one doesn't include a picture of me, which I thought was sort of weird. Oh well, right?

2nd
I went to Panera Bread for lunch!!! This is kind of not important, but it has to be one of my favorite parts of the day because Panera Bread is one of my favorite places to eat ^-^ it's yummyful haha
Oh, and I went to Powel's Sweet Shoppe. Got some candy..$10.87 worth of candy XD

3rd
My mother tricked me into a doctor visit. It wasn't like a doctor, he is a shirnk my parents pay to reassure themselves that I'm not crazy. I don't like to go so they often have to bribe or trick me into going. Long story short, I ended up in his waiting room at 3:50 and he told me the same thing he told me last time I was there. Basically that I need to get a job, find out more about colleges with my major, and get my license already.

Speaking of License...

4th
I schedueled my drivers test! It is going to be on August 31st at 8:50 in the morning. Early, I know, but it has to be in the morning because almost as soon as I get back from that, we are going to Sac for the convention. So much happening on the 31st, not even funny :/

5th
I made dinner. All by myself! You should all be very proud, because I can NOT cook. I made pasta, and it didn't kill anyone! Such a big accomplishment for me, you peoples have no idea what this means to me!
So the sauce wasn't the best, it was still pretty good. Needed something to sweeten it up a little though, next time I'm going to add a lot more to it. But be proud, I am learning to cook! If my house burns down, we will all know why ;)

6th
Watch this video!

This song was shown to me by my older sister, the one who is going to SacAnime with us. This song just makes me smile every time I hear it, and I sing it around the house a lot too haha it's just so true!! Don't judge me, I just love it ^-^

This is Riku, singing (very off key) and signing off, Lates!

Back to the DMV

I am going to the DMV tomorrow to replace my lost permit. I swear, I have looked for it everywhere! Stupid papers, stupid permit, grrr........
So my mom and I are going to go to the DMV and wait for hours in that horrid line and get me a new permit. I have to be there right as they open at 8, which means I am up before 7, which means no sleeping in :(
The good news is that I get to have my permit again ^-^ and I am excited.

Okay that's basically all I wanted to say haha IMA GET MY PERMIT AGAIN!!! YAY!! hahaha okay now i'm done. YAY!!

My Letter to the Lost as I Move Forward

Well...I had kind of a rought night last night/this morning. Around 2:11am, I had memory flash back to the first day of my senior year last year. This only happened because now I am graduated and everyone is starting school tomorrow..well after that pleasent little flash back, I began to think about my senior year of high school. I have to admit, a lot great things really did happen. I got a great bofriend, I learned a lot about myself, I had some little adventures with my friends. A lot of bad things happened too, though, my bestie and I got into our biggest fight ever and spent a few MONTHS (normally it's just days) not talking to each other, I saw my group begin to fall apart, and I lost a close friend.
Well, this post will be short and to the point. This post is about my early morning, and all of the anger and frustration I have about said lost friend. He just didn't need to go.

At 2:11 this morning I grabbed a piece of paper and began a letter to this friend of mine. I wrote out his full name at the top of the page and started off by telling him that I could not believe that he had left our lives for good. By the time I had written four lines into the letter, I had a few tears rolling down my cheeks.
Let me pause here to say that I do not cry. When something really sad or bad happens and everyone around me is sobbing uncontrollably, I do not cry. There might be one or two tears, but no shortness of breath, no puffy red eyes, no real Crying. I haven't had a real cry in years, if you guys want me to be completely honest.
So there I sat on my bed, writing a letter to this passed friend. I asked him if he would miss getting to walk across the stage as they called out his name to get his diploma. I reminded him of how I used to try and get his silver watch from him every morning..and how our friends referred to that watch as Shannon proof because it took me so long to figure out how to open the clasp. I told him how every morning for the rest of that first month, I would stare at the steps, just waiting for him to come walking up with his morning coffee and give us that same morning smile that he always had on his face.
It was at this point in the letter that I had to stop writing. I could hardly see the paper. Tears poured down my face and I actually cried. For almost ten minuets, I lay on my bed and did my best to control myself.
Later in this letter I told him about Formal and Prom, I talked about how I felt so wrong going to Formal that Janurary without him. I think the group really wanted to keep his memory alive by doing the limo thing again, and then going to the same restaurant. It all kind of failed, that year. But the previous year, when he was there, everything went so smoothly. The limo and then dinner, it was just a great night. He was most certinally on our minds this last time.
In conclusion to this letter, I began to get really honest with him. I told him that for that first week or twwo I didn't feel anything. That I was more numb than sad. Then I blamed myself, but that I no longer did.
It was almost Janurary when a girl asked me how I was doing. I told her I was okay, but then she told me not to feel too bad about what had happened because it wasn't my fault that I had broken his heart and then stomped on it. I asked her what she meant, and she told me that she and his mother had been talking. This lost friends mother, for a day or so, thought he may have been upset with me for breaking his heart. She figured that was why he did what e did. I never told anyone what this girl had said to me. I know that my friends mother doesn't believe this, not anymore at least, and I can't even be sure she believed it in the first place. All I know is that I cannot blame myself for what happened. I have to move on. Life continues and so must I.
My final words in the letter to him said that I missed him, and love him. I told him that he had really impacted me with his life, and that I would never forget him.

You see, people come into our lives for a reason, and each person we interact with helps to shape us a little more. I cared so much about this friend, and when he left..I guess I just refused to believe it. Now, eight months later, I think I am beginning to come to terms with what happened.
Rest in peace, my dear friend. I will always remember you.

3 February 1995 - 4 December 2011

The Infection Spreads! and some bad news..

So my boyfriend came over today and we spent the whole day together. It was great! We spent hours doing two things: playing with a dog and playing Magic. Also, we were not alone. *insert*dramatic*music*here* Oh yes, my boyfriend has spread his Magic Infection to my younger brother, who happens to be a bit of a nerd as it is.
I have familiarised myself with my deck, and I have become quite comfortable with the game now. If I continue at this rate, I think that I might be comfortable actually participating in the Magic Night that my boyfriend invited me to. I'm still not sure if I should go or not yet, though..Magic kinda seems more like his "GuyTime" thing, you know? I would feel really bad about intruding on his GuyTime. Oh well, I have a few more days to figure it out.

I have some pretty bad news. I think I lost my permit. Yeah I know, you're all probably wondering why I haven't actually gone in to get my lisence yet. Well, even though I am 18, my parents wanted me to have some behind the wheel experience with a trianed profesional before I get my lisence and they want me to have behind the wheel experience with them before I go to the professional and they wouldn't let me do that unless I got my permit. Nasty circle, I know :/ but I went with it and I got my permit. Now I can't find it. The good news is, however, I don't need a permit in order to take my behind the wheel test for the DMV! Also, the behind the wheel with a proffesional doesn't require that I have a permit either! "What's the big deal, then?" you may be wondering, well let me tell you. My parents are phyco and don't want me to do anything until I can locate my permit papers. Great, right? Not really, I have to find those papers because my parents have been more crazy than ever lately! I know, I know, most parents are crazy. My mother is Asian!!! She will kill me in my sleep and my father will take the fall for it! I just know it! Okay so that is an  exageration, but still..I just gotta find those papers!